Dis week masuk 3 months and 3 weeks I'm pragnant!.. pheww... this few months was soooooo tiring... All the nausea and vomitting really made me totally exhausted and flat on couch most of the time... huhu.. I didnt think I will be this lembik.. iskk.. However, feeling a baby growing inside me is the most wonderful experience that I've ever felt.. of course, despite all the weird and exhausting feelings that I hav to go thru becoz of the body changes such as :
1. First 2 months, loya and muntah2 time bangun pagi.. ergghh.. skarang.. muntah ptg2 pulak.. nearly everyday, muntah aje.. everything I eat leaves horrible taste in my mouth.. Btull.... I never thot that I will be this weak!I alwiz thot that I'm a tough girl.. hahaha.. skarang baru tau.. All the experience naik gunung korbu 3 kali, tahan skali, yong belar skali.. ledang 2 kali, nuang lagi, bintang lagi.. and ntah gunung hape2 lagi tah.. the experience is nothing compared to skarang nih! huhu....
2. I'm becoming super sensitive to smells.... Nak kata anak mat salleh, bukan.... but all the smell of ikan kering, belacan, bau tumis2 bunga lawang and all the rempah gile busukk! I even can't smell nasik beras biase.. I mean, I hav to eat either beras wangi or beras basmathi! hahaha.. ngengada betul.. tapi nak buat cemane.. dah memang busukk!
3. I feel sleepy all the time.. especially petang2... macam kena pil tido. arghh... rasa nak tido spanjang masa... sebaik laa tgh cuti.. cant imagine kalau pegi ofis mcm ni... sah2 tido depan pc... Buat keja sket aje dah letih.. especially cooking! Cooking is the biggest challenge...! Bau busuk sikit aje, I'll be vomitting.. and that'll make me flat on bed.. exhausted...!! Isk. kalau kat malaysia ni, komfem, taknak masuk dapur.. but here, I HAVE to... bukan ade kedai nak beli nasik bungkus...
4. Emotional tak tentu pasal... iskk.. everything seems to irritate me.. well maybe becoz I'm not comfortable with my own body... which make me easily irritated all the time.. salah sikit, mesti nak marah... or I'll cry myself over sampai tido.. but org kata.. jgn ikutkan sangat.. nnt baby ikut perangai kite. .iskk.. the one thing I can do nak sejukkan hati is reading the Quran everyday... Mama kata, baca la surah Yusof.. Surah Mariam.. Surah Luqman. and Yassin.. tu aje yg aku ulang2.... hehe.. dengan harapan.. jgn le anak aku ni ikut perangai emos tak tentu pasal nih.... Luckily my "Deboo" really2 penyabar... just like my father... no matter how I yelled at him, he never be mad at me.. altho dia slalu cakap "Patut la org kata, kalau wife pregnant.. kena byk besabar..." Isk.. sorry.. I really didnt mean nak marah2.... isskkk.. but you know.. sometimes you do irritate me.. kekeke
5. Asik nak pegi toilet aje.. especially malam.. Kalau ikutkan rasa nak pakai pampers aje... kan senang... Before tido, wajib sekali.. then, pukul 2 bangun.. pukul 5 bangun lagi.. then pukul 7 lagi.. adehh... I know it's all because my kidney is working extra hard processing extra fluid in my body.. and my uterus is getting bigger which gives extra pressure on my bladder that makes me want to pee nearly every hour... Oh well..
6. Bloating and gas inside my stomach all the time... tak bleh perut kosong sket.. I'll easily get perut kembung and angin.. makes me realllly uncomfortable and those wind will cause nausea and back to vomitting .. againn....
Well... I'm not writing this entry to complaint... no.... but just to share the experience.. since I know.. in the end.. it will all be worth it! Looking at the scanned visual of my baby moves inside me is the most wonderful feelings and hearing the heartbeats for the first time was the most beautiful sound that you would listen... And most of the time.. I would reach out to mama asking this and that... and now that I'm a mother to be... baru la tau all the trouble my mother had gone thru.. iskk...
