Before I was a Mom

Came across this beautiful poem, which end up with me having watery eyes.... Damn these hormones....!



Before I was a Mom


Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.


Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.


Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.


Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.


Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.


Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom ...

Idle

Oh wow… how time flies… just look how long I’ve neglected my blog…

I missed being here..
I missed letting out what’ve bottled up inside me…
I missed how good it feels after grumbling about something that irritates me…
I missed everything that I left here….

but most of all… I missed writing bout Lya… I missed smiling back to what I’ve written bout her… just cant get myself to the thought that I’ve missed writing on how she grows up, and God knows how she grew up soooo fast.. that I’ve missed to ‘record’ it… that I might forget the day every time she makes a new move… … that I just cant look back and read about her bcoz I’ve neglected engraving it somewhere…

Mummy's pumpkin

Fun @ the Peak...!

It was a fun weekend.... I have no chance to upload photos @ ulu yam, now I have lots of photos @ genting waiting for me to upload.... anyways, it was a short & sweet 2 day 1 nite trip with Lya and another 2 families.... Lya suka sangat...! We had few round trip naik kuda pusing2 tu.... coz she liked it soooo much...

This is the only full body photo of me that i like.. coz the rest of the photos, I looked FAT...! hahaaa.... Anyways,nice shots, honey.... tak rugi beli lense tu.. hehehe....

Naaa... All the photos are uploaded into Fame's laptop, and @ home, I'm too bz with Lya.... that I could not afford to update my blog... hehe...

me & Lya @ chocolate factory...

Lya naik elephant...!

Careful, Lya....

Paintball @ The Woods

Meet Mr & Mrs Smith versi gumuk.. hahahaa....

Had a blasts weekend... We went to The Woods at UluYam... and played paintball for the 1st time... Not bad.. definitely gonna play again if we had the chance.... tapi lebam2 gak la 4-5 bijik kat badan... sakitnye sampai arini... the most painful kena kat haku sebijik headshot.. selepuk kat muka.. even kena kat facemask, tapi mask tu berlubang2, amikk kau... terasa paintball tu ditapis masuk ke dalam mulut ku... ewwww.... baru le merasa experience telan paint....

The battle field......

Team mate + opponents... good game, guys...

Kitorang menang woooo... tak caya tengok score team BANZAI tu haaa....

after main kat field, diorg main dlm hutan pulak.. lagi le mencabar agaknye, but kitorg tak join since cik Lya dah tunggu mummy & daddy dia, nak mandi sungai... sampai biru2 bibir budak sorg tu mandi kat ulu yam... tapi takmo naik jugak..... will upload photos of Lya later....

Should I or Shouldn't I?

I’m in dilemma here….

I’ve been using my Medela Mini Electric Plus for about one year now… Well it’s not actually mine.. its my sister’s… And it served me well for the past one year.. I was able to pump at work twice a day, without consuming much time (well, it’s a double pumping system… that contributes for short time pumping sessions). Overall, I am totally satisfied with it… (except for the irritating noise it makes..) I have sent it for service only once for the whole year.. and my sister has used it for about one year before she passed it to me after Lya’s borned….

Mini Electric Plus Along yg byk berjasa.. hehe...

Now that she’s expecting her new addition in April.. I’m in dilemma… She needs the pump too… its either I have to stop pumping at work… and just continue to breastfeed Lya only at nights.. (which I’m reluctant to, since she’s only 1 yr 1 month now, and my target is to pump at least until she reaches 2 yrs old) or Should I get another pump? I went to Medela Service Centre in Ampang last week and was totally amazed when I tried this demo set, and from then since, it has become one of items in my wish list… it works and feels exactly like natural baby’s sucking rhythm (Only bf mothers would understand this…!)

I love this...!

Should I buy it now? Since Medela has announced that the price will increase RM200 in 2 weeks time… but, this model costs a bomb! More than RM1k ….! Is it worth it if I buy it now? Gosh... If only i have lotsssss of extra $$$$......

"Cemane aa, Lya?"

" Tah la Mummy.. Lya pon tade duit nak bagi Mummy....

Pray for the Palestinians...

I'm just speechless..... Couldnt even imagine if we were at their place... Allah, please help them....


"Ya Allah!! Sebagaimana Engkau Pernah menghantar burung-burung ababil menghancurkan tentera bergajah Musyrikin, maka kami memohon kepada mu Ya Allah....... . turunkan lah bantuan mu kali ini kepada orang orang Islam di Palestin, hancurkanlah rejim zionis..amin. ...."

Today is a day after Xmas Day, and the moment I’m writing this entry, there are only 2 people in my department (that includes me…!!) and it’s already 9 o’clock!! Mmg aku aje la yg tak cuti… suddenly just now, my SM who’s supposed to be on leave today, came into the office and asked, am I the only one in the office?? I said, no.. there is another person.. haha.. he said he purposely came down to do spot check..!! haha… abih laa sapa yg tak apply cuti tu… kekeke…. anyhow, cant wait for 12:30pm, masa untuk berpoya2 wif my badminton gang…… biarlah org lain pergi bercuti, I’ll have leisure time wif my friends @ level 26.. today main 3 jam pun takpe.. hahaa… bos takde…


The breastfeeding incident…

Yesterday, for the 1st time, Lya merajuk with me.. the reason was she bite me during feeding time… and this was the 1st time she bite me that hard…!!! And it was soooo painful, since she already has 4 teeth (2 atas, 2 bawah). Imagine the knife-like pain I had to bear… the moment I was in pain, I screamed, and ‘jentik’ her pipi, to ask her to let go off my nipples….. tak jentik kuat pun.. slow aje… and she cried, and I never see her crying like that before… Sedih sgt bunyinye, sampai tersedu2 and I did everything to stop her from crying. If normal cry, showing her the cat, will shut her off… but yesterday, suma tak jalan… after a while, then only she stopped…

As I knew she was hungry, I tried to breastfeed her again, and it happened again, she bite me, and I automatically screamed her name.. ‘Lyaaaa…..!!!’.. and there she goes again, mcm budak kena marah… sampai tersedu2 and I don’t feel good at all after that… I felt soooooo guilty for ‘yelling’ at her… I didn’t do it intentionally…. Mummy mintak mahap, Lyaaaa….. tak sengajaaa…..

After that I gave her bottle milk… and she finished one whole bottle, and fell to sleep, but I can still hear her ‘sedu sedan’ while sleeping… gosh…. I’m a baaaaaddd mother…I know, I’ve read a lot.. that when a baby started to bite, especially when she already has teeth, don’t be mad, but instead use psychological method, i.e. pujuk her, saying that it is not right to bite…. Mummy will be in pain… bla bla…. But when it happened, you’ll forget everything that you read…. Screaming will be the 1st thing that you’ll do….

But anyhow, I did all he psychological method after that.. I was in trauma, when trying to breastfeed her again, and she bite me again but it was right…! Instead of screaming, I had to hold myself from screaming, and bear the pain, while trying to pujuk he, not to bite.. “Lya budak baik… Lya jgn gigit mummy… Nanti mummy sakit….. Lya ikut ckp Mummy, kan…Lya pandai....” and on and on and on.... and it was a miracle…! She stopped biting after that…!

Haihh… Lya.. Lya…today, the look at her face when she was crying after kena marah, keeps on playing in my head.... Haihh.. cepat la pukul 5..... I wanna go back.. and be wif Lya...

Lya jgn cry centu lagi.... Mummy pulak yg sedeyy....

Daddy

Dear Deboo @ Daddy Lya will be home tomorrow.... cant wait....!!! have a safe trip home, honey....

Kebosanan.....

I am sooo in no mood to work. Helppp....!!! Everybody in the office are in year end holiday mood already..... Aku saja kah yg tak cutiii.....???

Ni antara kerja2 mengisi kebosanan.... huahuaa... I missed playing with photoshop... tapi komputer kat umah tu slow gileeeee...... gile pun tak slow centu...

I wish I could draw her like this...!!

Hmmm...

A not so pleasant return trip

I'm back from Langkawi...!! it was a great, short trip with my family.. wif Mama, Babah, ALong's family, Angah & Rizal... (will upload some photos here later).

Went there wih my bro, Angah... by Air Asia, but I returned to KL alone, since Angah booked the ticket the next day.. (I have no more annual leave, so, I had to come back earlier than the others...!)

So, there I was, yesterday, travelling alone wif Lya... Gosh, how I hate Air Asia....!! No offense.. but to Air Asia, please take this as "kritikan membina".... well, that's y they are are rated as 'low cost'... but it was not only low in costs, but also, pretty 'cheap' in their services...!! I had travelled alone wif Lya, but by Malaysia Airlines, and Japan local airlines and the services were superb... they gave priorities to guests wif children & infant.... but yesterday, the moment I checked in @ Langkawi airport, I started to argue when I requested for ground assistance, and their reply was the assistance only valid for 'OKU' i.e handicapped people... Hello.... am I not considered as 'kurang upaya' at this very moment?? how am I goin to carry my luggages, and at the same time carry Lya, wif my hand luggage? Yes, I have her stroller with me, but with my other 2 luggages, I still have to take the trolley, when I get to LCCT, no?? How am I suppose to push the pram and the trolley together???

The man @ the check in counter couldnt answer, instead he gave "brilliant" suggestion for me to pass my baby to any workers available @ the LCCT while I handle my luggages. God.....!! can they be more ignorant?? Anyhow, I couldnt argue anymore, than I just checked in, and went to the departure hall, when at that time, Lya's already started to get cranky, after the looong queue and waiting during check in... (God.. they are toooooo sloowww...!!)

When Lya's started crying (and screamingg!!) I had to carry her.. (thank god I brought her baby sling).. so, I had to push her pram.. while carrying her @ the same time... while passing thru the security guard at the departure entrance, the guard blindly asked me, "Nape tak letak baby dlm stroller...??" Mak aii... buta kee??? tak nampak ke anak aku tgh nangis2 melalak due to your slow services?? But i just answered " dia taknak.. dia menangis..." and left...

Again, during boarding time, there was the long queue.... they only gave priority to people above 65 yrs old... so, I just stood there, tak sanggup nak beratur lagi.... but luckily, one chinese family were so kind, and gave permission for me & Lya to cut the line... so that I wouldnt be the last person to board the plane...

I had a seat next to an Australian couple who happened to be very friendly, and soooooo helpful.... they helped me handle my backpack (my one and only hand luggage). Lya cried the moment we board the plane, (dia rimas agaknye... org berebut2 mcm naik bas mini kaler pink...!!) Can the guests of Air Asia be more civilised?? At this very moment I wished I were in Japan, where this"berebut-rebut mcm ulat taik" phenomenon does not happen...

An Indian lady next to my aisle seat asked whether I'm travelling alone. (Agaknye dia kesian tgk aku terkapai2 handle Lya yg mengamuk2).... I said yes, and told her how difficult it was to get assistance... She couldnt believe that the assistance is only available for handicapped people.. as she was travelling with her family, she offered me help with my luggage when we arrive @ LCCT. The help I really needed...!!! I know, I shouldnt trust anybody... but anyone who's in my shoe, would be happy if someone offered the help you really needed..! And she seems sooo kind, she was with an old man (maybe his father), her husband, another young lady, and her 2 kids... There's nothing bad she would do, no?

Anyhow... Lya slept in the flight only 15 minutes before touch down.. phewww... i had to read her books & mags, sing to her, played peekaboo.. and do anything that would avoid her from crying.... The plane arrived on time... And luckily the exit from arrival hall, is near to the luggage conveyer. So, I passed Lya to her aunty just outside the gate.. (luckily she arrived on time to pick us up) before I take the luggages, and thanked Hannah (the Indian lady) for the help she offered, before I left..

I just wish that Air Asia would improve their services.. and make it more baby friendly. Hey, Firefly also is a low cost carrier, but from what I see their services are similar to that offered on MAS. Now, looking at their poor services, travelling by Air Asia alone with an infant would the last thing I would do. There. I let it all out already.. Thank god I have a blog.

Double celebration...

My lil angel turned to 1 today....!! Awww...... she is sooo grown up! Today she woke up at 6:00 a.m...!! And smile, and smile, and smile...... Happy birthday sayang... mummy & daddy love you sooooooo much.... You're the best gift ever....

Lya & Mummy winduu daddy.... Daddy cepat balik ye....

oopppsss.. and yess... Officially today is our 2nd year of Anniversary... yes, the same day as Lya's birthday....

Two wonderful years

Twenty four beautiful months

You’ll never know how much you’ve made me happy

For that, thank you soo much…

I love you, Ayang ..... with all my heart....

Mari tengok Lya Jalan2....

She's nearly an expert in walking...!! Almost la....

Lya, Lya...

Exactly in 2 weeks time, Lya's gonna be 1 year old.... I felt soo happy that she has grown up to be such a healthy, and cheeky lil baby but at the same time, I felt totally sad that her precious 'baby'moments is going to be over.... Hmm... I'm not suppose to mourn bout this, right?

Ok.. here are some photo updates on her...

Another new friend found.... Caayaaaang Otomen.... tenkyu angkeng sapiqqq.. belikan Lya otomenn...

Ni ape pesen lak nihhh....

Hey.. I saw one of this in my books... ni bunyi dia.. ding.. ding...

Budak ini suda pandai mintak nak main.... sampai nangis2 mintak naik mende nih....

Sukeee tunjuk2 ngan jari dia yg kecik camnieeee...

Auntie... masuk gear cemniee, ye.... cemni yeee??

Awww.... I just love her smile........

And her laughter....

Pok amai amai.....

Daddy cepat balik yeee...... nnt kite bleh jenjalan....

A proverb says...

'One who fails to plan.. plans to fail...."

'Gagal merancang.. merancang kegagalan' - M Nasir & Malique - Mantera Beradu....

But.... what if what we planned is a total failure....?? Grrrrrrrrrr.....

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I had this 'sinful' lunch to cheer myself up..... Mc D Move It Meal...!! Heavenly tastes of Double McChicken could lit up somebody's day.... yupp.... am gonna be fat fat fat...

New countdown begins....

Despite all the workloads I had in the office.. despite Lya's new skill of "mengamuk-ing" and drives me crazeeee when I'm at home..... I'm in a happy mood this week...

I have a new countdown...!! ngeeee........

All my bags are packed.. I'm ready to go.. lalalalaa......

Oh, kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you'll wait for me

Hold me like you'll never let me go

Cause Im leavin on a jet plane........ lalalala....

Another BF story....

And it has been a while when I last talked on my breastfeeding journey.. I called it ‘journey’ since there are lots of ups and downs…

Well, when I first got pregnant, I’ve equipped myself with breastfeeding knowledge… but deep inside, I’ve always thought that BF is a natural thing between a mother and a baby… a “plug n play” thingy.. easy….

WRONG!!!

Breastfeeding is a learning process between a mother and a baby.. and it requires a lot.. and I mean A LOTTTT of effort…… and that is why I truthfully respect mothers who could BF their babies up tilll 2 years.. or more… not to mention who successfully EXCLUSIVELY BF … lagi la haku tabik…

Dalam surat Al Baqarah [2]: 233 disebutkan, "Para ibu hendaklah menyusukan anak-anaknya selama dua tahun penuh, yaitu bagi yang ingin menyempurnakan penyusuan."

I would say I felt pity to the babies who did not get from their mothers.. Personally I would feel less motherly if I don’t give the best to my baby… and it is really heart breaking when some of the mothers “decided” not to BF their babies, even b4 the baby is borned.. no offence, anybody… unless there’s a great excuse not to BF a baby, then I would 100% support working mothers to exclusively BF their babies.. and that’s the main reason why the request for a lactation room in MI*C came up… (thank you ayang who gave full support on this…!! *_* )

I’ve personally heard a lot of.. I’d say…”unacceptable” excuses not to BF… These 3 are the most frequent one…

-“sakit….”
-“leceh”
-“takde tempat nak perah”

I don’t say BF for me is easy… I cried when the midwife massaged me, since the milk wont came out in the 1st week of confinement….I had blisters on my nipples when I just started… Bleeding… Kulit terkopek2… Can you imagine how painful it was… And I was always in tears when Lya started to suck my milk… and I was stomping my feet when she’s sucking on them, and I cried… It was that painful… But it gets easier in time….

When Lya was 3 months old, she refused to be BF when I came back for a 2 days outstation, because my milk supply decreased tremendously.. My MIL kept asking me to give her formula milk… since Lya was continuously crying.. and she couldnt bear to let her cried... but I chose to be “temporary deaf”.. I just listened to Along, instead… I let Lya cried because I know if I stop BF her.. then my milk would decrease more.. and it would be permanently stop… That was what Along experienced.. and mind you.. she had 4 children, and the 4th child is the one that she’s successful of exclusive BF…

I became known to hotel workers when I attended a 2 days course, just because I asked to store my milk in hotel’s refrigerator during the 2 days duration course… (I brought my ice pack… but I felt more confidence the milk is not contaminated when they are kept in a freezer rather than in my cooling bag)

I became known to the office where I attended a 1 week course in Singapore.. when I requested a place to pump out my milk… and a place to store them…

I pumped out my milk, whenever I can, at the aiport, even at my seat in a flight back to KL, when the flight was delayed, and my breast became engorged and painful.. I did that because once I skip a session, the result would be.. my milk supply started to decrease again.. and it takes time to ‘recover’…The airport workers were confused when I brought milk stock but there was no baby.. took me a while to explain to them…

I ate everything that could increase my milk supply… and at one time, I became gemuk gile.. hahaaa.. now I’m still gemuk.. but hey… I managed to lost few kgs last ramadhan.. without affecting my milk supply…! Hehehe…. But now I think I’m gaining back.. haha…

I brought my pumping equipment bag ke hulu ke hilir at the office twice a day.. and being called as ‘beg pramugari’…. Lantaklah…..

Those are few of my breastfeeding experience…. I am no expert in BF.. learning.. still and always am….. thank you to my friends.. (esp Ati.. & Neny.. ) whom always be my friends in need when it comes to BF.. hehehe..

Oh wow.. turned out this was a lil bit long entry… It’s 2 o’clock now.. gtg…

Oh.. here's a pix of our lactation room.. a small one.. but hey.. this is just a start... as long as it has all that a nursing mother requires.. especially a sink and a referigerator.. it is okay... yup.. just okay...

blurr la pulak gambo nih....

Happy 11 months old, Lya Qaisara

Oh my God.. in a month, my lil cutie pie will be one year old… Awwwwww…. My lil angel has grown up…. Missed her innocent, fragile look when she was still a lil baby… Now …she has become more and more (and more…!) cheeky and mischievous, and at certain times really.. and I mean really tested my patience…. but she’ll always be my beloved lil baby… always my baby…

It has been a while since I talked on her milestones… well, here goes..

- She can walk…!!! Since she was at 10 months old..last weekend, I counted her steps… 25 steps without fall…!! Yippie… good gurll….
- Sukeeee tunjuk perasaan.. Oh, God.. sometimes she could really got into my nerve.. I categorized myself as really patience while handling a baby… or more to handling an ‘infant’…… but ‘toddlerhood zone’ is the time when your patience is really tested, okeh….… You’ll know the true feelings if you have one..!
- Shows what she wants with gestures.. She’s the boss to everyone at home…! She’ll just point her fingers where/what she wants and she’ll get them..
- She’s a chatterbox..! and the most frequent word is ‘tat’… means ‘cat’…. ‘dede’ means ‘daddy’…. Bila nak pandai sebut mummy ni Lya…??
- Still breastfed.. although not exclusively, but most of milk that she takes is mummy’s milk..

These are photos on her 11th months bday... muke bosan sgt at umah, so I brought her to Toys 'r' us.. This lil cutie taknak balik pulak since dah syiok sgt main... adehhh... she was screaming in the middle of people... and people were staring at me mcm aku tak reti jaga anak... adehhh.. i had to bribe her with one toy... but she refused to let me take it to the cashier to pay... Lya.. Lya...

Macam kelakar je Lya pakai skirt... tak sesuaiiii...

Ni fevret biskut Lyaaa.....

Vrooomm.. babai mummy....

ngok ngek ngok ngek...

Mummy... cemane nak turun niee??

Daddy.... errr.. Tantek tak keta nie?

Penat la mummy...


Lya main Cak cak..

Another sleepless night...

Lya refused to sleep last night.. she woke up @ about 2a.m in the morning.. and wanted to be cuddled, played with my Tupperware, ‘talked’ by herself.. (God knows what she mumbled about…) and even ‘asked’ me to carry her around our bedroom… and downstairs! At least I understood her gestures.. She cried, lembik & lentikkan badan if I bring her to sit on our bed – means that she wants me to carry her around… (Sayang oi… pukul 2 pagi… Nak mummy buat macamana…..!! Mummy tak tauuu…..) At times like this how I wished her daddy is around… He’s always being the one who knows what to do when I’m clueless…

Finally she slept again @ about 4:30a.m….. As I tucked her in.. found myself in tears.. God knows why.. but it feels much better after that…

Hate emotional entry like this… oh well…

Something's hidden inside.....

I bought a little ‘something’ for myself…yeay!!!

I guess I ‘needed’ it rather than ‘wanted’ it sooo much….. But it is time anyway.. it has been 3 and ½ years since used the previous one…

Lya's new ride....

Introducing.... Lya's new 'Stride to Ride Walker'...

the great thing is... this infant walker could turn into a toddler ride... I just love any 2 in 1 thingy...

As usual, Lya ala2 jakun when we asked her to walk with it.... siap nangis2 lagik.. after a while, she was almost an expert.. hahaa... almost....

Tantek tak keta baru Lya...?

Ni muke bgn tido, terus nak main keta...

Watch this clip... dia suke gile... excuse the background voices of her auntie, nenek and mummy yg over-excited, okeh..

It's Friday...!! Yeay!!

Now i know, that bosses are the people who really inspires you to work hard.. This week considered to be the most inefficient week for me, as all 3 bosses in our department weren't around... Normally at times like this we, the so-called 'machai' shall jump with joy, celebrate, and seize the moment... moments that no one will come to you asking you to do this and that, pushing you around and keep bothering you the moment u were just started to 'facebooking'.... (hehe...)

But this week, I spent most of my time @ office on facebooking, until i'm sick of it... and the whole of this week was totally dull... i was in no mood at all to work.. surprisingly now, I felt that I love having bosses in the office to push me around... hahaaaa (gila kah aku??) When they are in the office, then I would feel that the salary I earned at the end of the month is really 'halal'....

During lunch time today, I went to m*dv.. planning to go to Toys 'r' us to find something for Lya.. as it has been a while since i bought a 'learning toy' for her.. and now that she just got well from her fever.... and has started to learn to walk I'm planning to give her something that would encourage her to learn in a more 'funner' way...such as leap frog 4 in 1 musical ice cream truck or playskool step start walk 'n ride or anything like that... (hihi.. bole ye daddy? pweety pleeasee... cian Lya.... smalam dia main tolak2 walker aje.... and dia mmg langsung tanak masuk walker dah...)

I was just about to enter Toys 'r' us, but suddenly i redirected myself to Madam Kwan's just next to the entrance of TrUs... and had a seat all alone by myself... without even looking at the menu, I called the waitress and ordered ice lemon tea and..... this.....!!!!

Nasi Bojari Madam Kwan's

It was not more than 5 minutes later, my order arrived.. and I finished the whole lot of it in less than 10 minutes!!!... OMG... it was so darn delicious... Thank you ayang who introduced me to it last fasting month...... and there goes my diet, ye puan2...oh well.... lantak lah.. sedap gile, okeh...

Will definitely have lunch there again... huhuuu....

Tiring weekend.....

Last weekend penat gile.. we had our open house, invited quite a number of guests, but just the day before I was flat on bed with terrible cough + fever.. Got it from Lya I guess, because she was down with flu 2 days before... her temperature went up and down for the past 4 days.. including the day we invited guests to our house...

To all who managed to come, thank you soooooo much..... I apologize for not being able to fully entertain all of you since Lya was cranky bcoz of the flu and fever.. at 10 months old, this was the 1st time she had flu with fever... and it was a tough one. she wanted to be cuddled all the time.. and she doesnt want anybody else to dukung her except meeeeee...... naik patah pinggang dibuatnye... plus i, myself was not feeling well.....

yesterday, i brought her to see her paed @ DEMC since we already went to SU clinic twice, but still the fever keep coming back every 4 hours after i gave her medicine.... she had a blood test but luckily she is free from 'denggi'. but paed said there could have been virus infections which caused her fever, so she was given antibiotic and until today, she's still on them.... today, she's still having her flu. but alhamdulillah no fever... i had few sleepless nights since i had to check her temperature every hour, and keep her temperature down by applying wet towels on her head and her entire tiny body.. kesian sgt tgk anak mummy sorang nih....

Ni 1st day Lya demamm.....

Celamat ali layerrr... Usher of the day...

Masa ni okey lagi dgn ubat.. now, everytime nampak ubat, dia dah fobia... baru bawak turun kotak ubat, dia dah nangis2 sambil bawak diri .. pegi bawah meja... balik tiang... dekat dinding.... sambil buat tune sedih + kesian....

skang dah pandai cakap tepon.. sume mende jadik henpon dia... termasuk le themometer ni haaa...

This was how she slept ptg masa open house... dah penat sgt...

Lya with her new best friend... a weird looking yellow elephant her auntie bought from Phuket... ngeeeeeee.....

Org tua2 kate, budak demam nak dapat akal baru... ni la yg dia dapat agaknyeee...now, she can stand up by herself and stays in that position for few seconds.... sambil lambai2 or tepuk2 tgn, okeh.. wakakaaa...

And 2 cute budlets just appeared... kiut gile okeh... and it was sooo painful since she loves to bite during feeding time... sakit woo...

Lya jgn demam2 lagi, okeh... I know, I went 'unstable' and easily yelled at people when she's sick.... and at certain time, almost cried... I was just sooooo terribly worrieeeddd and terrifiiieeed, especially when her daddy's not around.... oh well....

Almost completed.... Yeayy!

After over 4 months of waiting… since Lya was just 6 months old…( goshh.. that long, huh…) Finally, it is almost completed….though it is just a small one, it’s okay… trying to keep reminding myself; there is no easy way to get what you really one.. It is not the room that I pictured it would be.. but…it is okay…. Just okay…. Well at least better to have something than nothing…

Life's back to routine.....

Goshh..it feels like yesterday we went to klia for break-fast and pick up daddy Lya.. and these 11 days, we fast together, and spent 4 days of Raya together, how time flies... but last nite, we went to klia again... to sent daddy off to Japan again... haihhh...and tomorrow, the normal routine will commence... mencciii...

aaaaa....

amik kau... buat macam umah sendiri dah... meja kfc pun dipanjatnye

photo taken by bz paparazzi...

nak itott.... hmmmm

Lya windu daddy............

Selamat ari rayerr...

So, I wrote only one Ramadhan entry... that bad huh.. i have lots of berbuka pictures, but could not find the timeto upload it here.... takpolaa... trus raya entry je lah...

This year's Raya was the most meaningful, as we get to celebrate together as one whole family.. with si kenit Lya... Thank God dear hubby managed to take his leave, although it was a short raya with him.. kalau tidak,nangih la hakuu... anyway... Daddy Lya has gone back to Japan last nite.. sigh....

Anyhow, 2 night b4 raya we went back to Taiping and celebrated Raya there.. this year we made our own lemang.. sedap gile.. muakaka... tgk la sapa tukang jaga api....the best lemang ever.. at par with lemang arwah Atuk dulu... hihii..

Lurvvee this pix..!

Si tomot momot Lya makan kek coklat

Daddy masak lemangg...

Ampun ekk....

Happy family kuu...

Selamat hari rayer to all.. maaf zahir batin....

Happy 9 month old, Lya Qaisara...

Today is Lya's 9th month birthday... This was how she wakes up this morning.. with a big grin on her face... bangun sahur sekali dgn haku.. huhuuu... Alhamdulillah she's a healthy and cheeky lil girl... berkat susu ibu... and becoming more and more clingy to me... and going to work every morning is becoming more and more difficult.. she'll cry or at least merengek before I go... haiihhh....

Mummy... Lya dah 9 month.. I've grown upp...!

nite before, she woke up like every hour, and I was like zombie at the office, trying to finish one drawing review, took me the whole day! tu pun tak abih jugak lagi.. it was a thin drawing, and it took me one whole day to finish it.. betape tak efisiennye...

By the way... this was what we had last weekend.. for berbuka.. all home made punye aaa... takyah gi restoran.. saje nak bagi terlur sket bulan2 posa nih...

Siakap Sweet Sour

Udang goreng basah

Siakap steam ala Thai... tak sempat nak decorate2 mcm chef wan, okeh.. yg penting, sodappp.. muakakakaa...

And lots and lots more... huuuuhuuu.

6th Ramadhan Entry

It's nice to be in this Ramadhan, I get to go back as early as 4 pm... That's what the company has granted during this holy month.. but my main reason to reach as early as possible is just to get to Lya.. and let MIL cook for breakfast.. Lya's soooo demanding and hard to handle now... it's either you have to dukung2 her & bawak jln2 or let her freeee.. and she'll explore every inch of the house... bawah krusi... pegi pintu... crawled sampai dapur... even dah start panjat tangga...

There was once, when she was sleeping,my MIL went to sweep the garage, thinking that she just fall asleep and will not wake up for another 1/2 hr... suddenly, her head appeared at the door (macam kura2...) and screamed "eeeeyyyyyy'... ni sah2 bangun2 tido, thinking, "mana sume org pegi ni...?" and heard the sound of sweeping outside... and she went to look for it.... "ooo.. sini rupe nye yeee... eeeeyyy nape tinggal aku tido sorg2 kat dalam aaaa..." haaaiiih...

yesterday evening, I arrived home @ about 5:30pm. normally, I would feed her and bathe her.. and it is sooo challenging,since tgn ku pun dah lembik late in the evening (puasa la katakan), and dia pulak tgh lasak and kene pegang kuat2 time mandi, or she'll dive in her bath tub... yesterday as usual, I put her in her baby cot (tranformed into playpen now...) and perform my Asar prayer and I saw her doing this....

Tengah tengok bawang putih bawang merah

Heeesshh... kecian bwg putih tu, Mummy...

Mummy kacau aaaa

she has started to stand while holding onto something few days ago... but yesterday, dia sanggup berdiri sambil tengok tv.. lama pulak tu...

Yesterday she's already climbed 2 stairs.. with me watching her at the back actually... takut budak sorg ni tergolek....no-no... this is not good.... I've to start letak pagar agaknye... that's y she can't be left alone at all..... bahaye2...

It is the most precious moment to watch her progressing day by day... Now, I wud understand why parents would scream in excitement everytime their baby is progressing something... mmg rase nak jerit2 excited kalau tgk dia pandai buat something for the 1st time...

Its just that I wish her Daddy is here together to watch her.....

Salam Merdeka.. &.. Selamat Berpuasa....

Lama sgt dah aku tak update blog....

Sindrom malas dah stat balik...

Anyhow..caye nak ucapkan selamat ari merdeka.. & celamat berpuace.. puace.. jgn takpuace.... Lya & Mommy mintak ampun kat daddy.. & cume kawan2 yeee......

terawih jomm...

The story of a lactation room...

I’ve been exclusively breastfed Lya for the last 6 months and now that she has started her solids I found out my milk supply started to decreased. Plus.. I have to face difficulties every time I sneaked in the vacant GM room to do my pumping session which is twice daily…. There was once, I even stucked there for about ½ hour after finished expressing my milk just because one of the managers in the next department was discussing something outside the room with his staffs. I wouldn’t dare to leave the room in front of them, or I will end up have to answer questions like what was I doin in that room, or at least I have to swallow weird looking stares from them (which I already used to..). That empty room shouldn’t be occupied, any way….Again, I have to play hide and seek using the pantry, to wash my pumping equipment, since I DO NOT like to clean everything in the toilet..! Don’t think that’s appropriate to wash equipment for preparing my baby’s food.

Now… Alhamdulillah, my effort to set up a lactation room in M*SC has been approved by the big boss of HR and this mini project has started…. (yeay…!) The properties department has begun to get the quotations from the contractors for this job… Last Monday, I’ve been called by properties dept to discuss on the layout for this room, and there I was, discussing the matter with 3 guys… who apparently know nothing on this, if I don’t feed the info to them.

Well, that’s not the issue anyway… even most of the nursing mothers here in the company have very lil info on the “existence” of lactation room at workplace… Anyways… I was disappointed to see the layout….. the room is too small, with only one station, and they are planning to take whatever “stock” they have for the room.. e.g. table (which are used for caterings…!), chairs, etc… just to save budget... Can u imagine how disappointed I was…

I’ve informed them minimum requirement for the lactation rooms, but they didn’t even bother to look at it ( I think!). then I requested to extend the room, just to make it bigger, to fit at least 2 stations with curtains/partitions between the stations.. I was soooo pissed off when one of the guys there said while laughing, “ Why do you need such big room… why do you need partitions, anyway… what is there to be embarrassed of…. The persons who are “doing” it are all women anyway…what’s wrong “doin” it together??” Is it tooo difficult to have just curtains? He has no respect for women at all… sakitnye hati kuu… the way he’s discussing this matter like, he’s making a joke out of it… which was tak kelakar langsung…

I was about to bergaduh2 with him… questioning is it becoz of the budget.. that they are doing this for the sake of just doing it… Why is the company willing to have smoking room at EVERY floor. While what we were asking for just ONE ROOM for this… I was about to raised my voice when the other guy clamed me down… sebaik ade mamat tu.. kalau tak … kalau takk… huhu…

marahnye akuu… grrrrr...

bosannyeee.....

hidup kembali bosan.. dear hubby has gone back.... to the so called country of the rising sun... i just hate these feelings..

sad....

and empty.....

Mari jawab soalan matematik...

Pagi tadi, ade sorang kawan baik aku bagi soalan nie....

"Soalan mudah dulu la… tak leh jawab kalo mmg kene gi amik spm sekali lagi.
a) What is the x-intercept and the y-intercept for 3x + y = 6
b) Solve the quadratic equation 2x(3x – 4) = x + 1. Give your answer correct to three decimal places
c) Solve 16^(4x−1) = 2^(3x−2)
d) Numbers m + 2 , n - 1 , 11 are the first three terms in an arithmetic progression. If the total of these numbers is 24, find the value of m and value of n. "

Sungguh tak kusangka betape seronottnye nak menjawab soalan tuh... sampai sanggup kutinggalkan kerje2 yg sbenarnye urgent, utk jwb soalan2 nih haaa... (Ampun boss...) haihh... seronottnye zaman skolah dulu....

AKU SCORE 100% TUUU....!!!! YEY YEYY....