Life's Like That....

Spiderweb accumulated inside my blog.....

2010-10-17T17:22:00.001+09:00

Test2..... Lama sgt dah tak update blog nih..... Dah bersawang dah nie..... Maybe i should start updating again?

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Before I was a Mom

2009-05-19T15:03:00.005+09:00

Came across this beautiful poem, which end up with me having watery eyes.... Damn these hormones....!

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom ...

Idle

2009-04-13T18:27:00.001+09:00

Oh wow… how time flies… just look how long I’ve neglected my blog…

I missed being here..
I missed letting out what’ve bottled up inside me…
I missed how good it feels after grumbling about something that irritates me…
I missed everything that I left here….

but most of all… I missed writing bout Lya… I missed smiling back to what I’ve written bout her… just cant get myself to the thought that I’ve missed writing on how she grows up, and God knows how she grew up soooo fast.. that I’ve missed to ‘record’ it… that I might forget the day every time she makes a new move… … that I just cant look back and read about her bcoz I’ve neglected engraving it somewhere…

Mummy's pumpkin

Fun @ the Peak...!

2009-02-10T14:34:00.004+09:00

It was a fun weekend.... I have no chance to upload photos @ ulu yam, now I have lots of photos @ genting waiting for me to upload.... anyways, it was a short & sweet 2 day 1 nite trip with Lya and another 2 families.... Lya suka sangat...! We had few round trip naik kuda pusing2 tu.... coz she liked it soooo much...

This is the only full body photo of me that i like.. coz the rest of the photos, I looked FAT...! hahaaa.... Anyways,nice shots, honey.... tak rugi beli lense tu.. hehehe....

Naaa... All the photos are uploaded into Fame's laptop, and @ home, I'm too bz with Lya.... that I could not afford to update my blog... hehe...

me & Lya @ chocolate factory...

Lya naik elephant...!

Careful, Lya....

Paintball @ The Woods

2009-02-04T14:23:00.007+09:00

Meet Mr & Mrs Smith versi gumuk.. hahahaa....

Had a blasts weekend... We went to The Woods at UluYam... and played paintball for the 1st time... Not bad.. definitely gonna play again if we had the chance.... tapi lebam2 gak la 4-5 bijik kat badan... sakitnye sampai arini... the most painful kena kat haku sebijik headshot.. selepuk kat muka.. even kena kat facemask, tapi mask tu berlubang2, amikk kau... terasa paintball tu ditapis masuk ke dalam mulut ku... ewwww.... baru le merasa experience telan paint....

The battle field......

Team mate + opponents... good game, guys...

Kitorang menang woooo... tak caya tengok score team BANZAI tu haaa....

after main kat field, diorg main dlm hutan pulak.. lagi le mencabar agaknye, but kitorg tak join since cik Lya dah tunggu mummy & daddy dia, nak mandi sungai... sampai biru2 bibir budak sorg tu mandi kat ulu yam... tapi takmo naik jugak..... will upload photos of Lya later....

Should I or Shouldn't I?

2009-01-23T15:57:00.009+09:00

I’m in dilemma here….

I’ve been using my Medela Mini Electric Plus for about one year now… Well it’s not actually mine.. its my sister’s… And it served me well for the past one year.. I was able to pump at work twice a day, without consuming much time (well, it’s a double pumping system… that contributes for short time pumping sessions). Overall, I am totally satisfied with it… (except for the irritating noise it makes..) I have sent it for service only once for the whole year.. and my sister has used it for about one year before she passed it to me after Lya’s borned….

Mini Electric Plus Along yg byk berjasa.. hehe...

Now that she’s expecting her new addition in April.. I’m in dilemma… She needs the pump too… its either I have to stop pumping at work… and just continue to breastfeed Lya only at nights.. (which I’m reluctant to, since she’s only 1 yr 1 month now, and my target is to pump at least until she reaches 2 yrs old) or Should I get another pump? I went to Medela Service Centre in Ampang last week and was totally amazed when I tried this demo set, and from then since, it has become one of items in my wish list… it works and feels exactly like natural baby’s sucking rhythm (Only bf mothers would understand this…!)

I love this...!

Should I buy it now? Since Medela has announced that the price will increase RM200 in 2 weeks time… but, this model costs a bomb! More than RM1k ….! Is it worth it if I buy it now? Gosh... If only i have lotsssss of extra $$$$......

"Cemane aa, Lya?"

" Tah la Mummy.. Lya pon tade duit nak bagi Mummy....

Pray for the Palestinians...

2009-01-15T10:25:00.004+09:00

I'm just speechless..... Couldnt even imagine if we were at their place... Allah, please help them....

"Ya Allah!! Sebagaimana Engkau Pernah menghantar burung-burung ababil menghancurkan tentera bergajah Musyrikin, maka kami memohon kepada mu Ya Allah....... . turunkan lah bantuan mu kali ini kepada orang orang Islam di Palestin, hancurkanlah rejim zionis..amin. ...."

2008-12-26T10:29:00.004+09:00

Today is a day after Xmas Day, and the moment I’m writing this entry, there are only 2 people in my department (that includes me…!!) and it’s already 9 o’clock!! Mmg aku aje la yg tak cuti… suddenly just now, my SM who’s supposed to be on leave today, came into the office and asked, am I the only one in the office?? I said, no.. there is another person.. haha.. he said he purposely came down to do spot check..!! haha… abih laa sapa yg tak apply cuti tu… kekeke…. anyhow, cant wait for 12:30pm, masa untuk berpoya2 wif my badminton gang…… biarlah org lain pergi bercuti, I’ll have leisure time wif my friends @ level 26.. today main 3 jam pun takpe.. hahaa… bos takde…

The breastfeeding incident…

Yesterday, for the 1st time, Lya merajuk with me.. the reason was she bite me during feeding time… and this was the 1st time she bite me that hard…!!! And it was soooo painful, since she already has 4 teeth (2 atas, 2 bawah). Imagine the knife-like pain I had to bear… the moment I was in pain, I screamed, and ‘jentik’ her pipi, to ask her to let go off my nipples….. tak jentik kuat pun.. slow aje… and she cried, and I never see her crying like that before… Sedih sgt bunyinye, sampai tersedu2 and I did everything to stop her from crying. If normal cry, showing her the cat, will shut her off… but yesterday, suma tak jalan… after a while, then only she stopped…

As I knew she was hungry, I tried to breastfeed her again, and it happened again, she bite me, and I automatically screamed her name.. ‘Lyaaaa…..!!!’.. and there she goes again, mcm budak kena marah… sampai tersedu2 and I don’t feel good at all after that… I felt soooooo guilty for ‘yelling’ at her… I didn’t do it intentionally…. Mummy mintak mahap, Lyaaaa….. tak sengajaaa…..

After that I gave her bottle milk… and she finished one whole bottle, and fell to sleep, but I can still hear her ‘sedu sedan’ while sleeping… gosh…. I’m a baaaaaddd mother…I know, I’ve read a lot.. that when a baby started to bite, especially when she already has teeth, don’t be mad, but instead use psychological method, i.e. pujuk her, saying that it is not right to bite…. Mummy will be in pain… bla bla…. But when it happened, you’ll forget everything that you read…. Screaming will be the 1st thing that you’ll do….

But anyhow, I did all he psychological method after that.. I was in trauma, when trying to breastfeed her again, and she bite me again but it was right…! Instead of screaming, I had to hold myself from screaming, and bear the pain, while trying to pujuk he, not to bite.. “Lya budak baik… Lya jgn gigit mummy… Nanti mummy sakit….. Lya ikut ckp Mummy, kan…Lya pandai....” and on and on and on.... and it was a miracle…! She stopped biting after that…!

Haihh… Lya.. Lya…today, the look at her face when she was crying after kena marah, keeps on playing in my head.... Haihh.. cepat la pukul 5..... I wanna go back.. and be wif Lya...

Lya jgn cry centu lagi.... Mummy pulak yg sedeyy....

Daddy

Dear Deboo @ Daddy Lya will be home tomorrow.... cant wait....!!! have a safe trip home, honey....

Kebosanan.....

2008-12-23T10:34:00.002+09:00

I am sooo in no mood to work. Helppp....!!! Everybody in the office are in year end holiday mood already..... Aku saja kah yg tak cutiii.....???

Ni antara kerja2 mengisi kebosanan.... huahuaa... I missed playing with photoshop... tapi komputer kat umah tu slow gileeeee...... gile pun tak slow centu...

I wish I could draw her like this...!!

Hmmm...

A not so pleasant return trip

2008-12-22T14:51:00.008+09:00

I'm back from Langkawi...!! it was a great, short trip with my family.. wif Mama, Babah, ALong's family, Angah & Rizal... (will upload some photos here later).

Went there wih my bro, Angah... by Air Asia, but I returned to KL alone, since Angah booked the ticket the next day.. (I have no more annual leave, so, I had to come back earlier than the others...!)

So, there I was, yesterday, travelling alone wif Lya... Gosh, how I hate Air Asia....!! No offense.. but to Air Asia, please take this as "kritikan membina".... well, that's y they are are rated as 'low cost'... but it was not only low in costs, but also, pretty 'cheap' in their services...!! I had travelled alone wif Lya, but by Malaysia Airlines, and Japan local airlines and the services were superb... they gave priorities to guests wif children & infant.... but yesterday, the moment I checked in @ Langkawi airport, I started to argue when I requested for ground assistance, and their reply was the assistance only valid for 'OKU' i.e handicapped people... Hello.... am I not considered as 'kurang upaya' at this very moment?? how am I goin to carry my luggages, and at the same time carry Lya, wif my hand luggage? Yes, I have her stroller with me, but with my other 2 luggages, I still have to take the trolley, when I get to LCCT, no?? How am I suppose to push the pram and the trolley together???

The man @ the check in counter couldnt answer, instead he gave "brilliant" suggestion for me to pass my baby to any workers available @ the LCCT while I handle my luggages. God.....!! can they be more ignorant?? Anyhow, I couldnt argue anymore, than I just checked in, and went to the departure hall, when at that time, Lya's already started to get cranky, after the looong queue and waiting during check in... (God.. they are toooooo sloowww...!!)

When Lya's started crying (and screamingg!!) I had to carry her.. (thank god I brought her baby sling).. so, I had to push her pram.. while carrying her @ the same time... while passing thru the security guard at the departure entrance, the guard blindly asked me, "Nape tak letak baby dlm stroller...??" Mak aii... buta kee??? tak nampak ke anak aku tgh nangis2 melalak due to your slow services?? But i just answered " dia taknak.. dia menangis..." and left...

Again, during boarding time, there was the long queue.... they only gave priority to people above 65 yrs old... so, I just stood there, tak sanggup nak beratur lagi.... but luckily, one chinese family were so kind, and gave permission for me & Lya to cut the line... so that I wouldnt be the last person to board the plane...

I had a seat next to an Australian couple who happened to be very friendly, and soooooo helpful.... they helped me handle my backpack (my one and only hand luggage). Lya cried the moment we board the plane, (dia rimas agaknye... org berebut2 mcm naik bas mini kaler pink...!!) Can the guests of Air Asia be more civilised?? At this very moment I wished I were in Japan, where this"berebut-rebut mcm ulat taik" phenomenon does not happen...

An Indian lady next to my aisle seat asked whether I'm travelling alone. (Agaknye dia kesian tgk aku terkapai2 handle Lya yg mengamuk2).... I said yes, and told her how difficult it was to get assistance... She couldnt believe that the assistance is only available for handicapped people.. as she was travelling with her family, she offered me help with my luggage when we arrive @ LCCT. The help I really needed...!!! I know, I shouldnt trust anybody... but anyone who's in my shoe, would be happy if someone offered the help you really needed..! And she seems sooo kind, she was with an old man (maybe his father), her husband, another young lady, and her 2 kids... There's nothing bad she would do, no?

Anyhow... Lya slept in the flight only 15 minutes before touch down.. phewww... i had to read her books & mags, sing to her, played peekaboo.. and do anything that would avoid her from crying.... The plane arrived on time... And luckily the exit from arrival hall, is near to the luggage conveyer. So, I passed Lya to her aunty just outside the gate.. (luckily she arrived on time to pick us up) before I take the luggages, and thanked Hannah (the Indian lady) for the help she offered, before I left..

I just wish that Air Asia would improve their services.. and make it more baby friendly. Hey, Firefly also is a low cost carrier, but from what I see their services are similar to that offered on MAS. Now, looking at their poor services, travelling by Air Asia alone with an infant would the last thing I would do. There. I let it all out already.. Thank god I have a blog.

Double celebration...

2008-12-15T16:55:00.008+09:00

My lil angel turned to 1 today....!! Awww...... she is sooo grown up! Today she woke up at 6:00 a.m...!! And smile, and smile, and smile...... Happy birthday sayang... mummy & daddy love you sooooooo much.... You're the best gift ever....

Lya & Mummy winduu daddy.... Daddy cepat balik ye....

oopppsss.. and yess... Officially today is our 2nd year of Anniversary... yes, the same day as Lya's birthday....

Two wonderful years

Twenty four beautiful months

You’ll never know how much you’ve made me happy

For that, thank you soo much…

I love you, Ayang ..... with all my heart....

Mari tengok Lya Jalan2....

2008-12-03T15:02:00.002+09:00

She's nearly an expert in walking...!! Almost la....

Lya, Lya...

2008-12-02T14:50:00.013+09:00

Exactly in 2 weeks time, Lya's gonna be 1 year old.... I felt soo happy that she has grown up to be such a healthy, and cheeky lil baby but at the same time, I felt totally sad that her precious 'baby'moments is going to be over.... Hmm... I'm not suppose to mourn bout this, right?

Ok.. here are some photo updates on her...

Another new friend found.... Caayaaaang Otomen.... tenkyu angkeng sapiqqq.. belikan Lya otomenn...

Ni ape pesen lak nihhh....

Hey.. I saw one of this in my books... ni bunyi dia.. ding.. ding...

Budak ini suda pandai mintak nak main.... sampai nangis2 mintak naik mende nih....

Sukeee tunjuk2 ngan jari dia yg kecik camnieeee...

Auntie... masuk gear cemniee, ye.... cemni yeee??

Awww.... I just love her smile........

And her laughter....

Pok amai amai.....

Daddy cepat balik yeee...... nnt kite bleh jenjalan....

2008-11-24T15:02:00.003+09:00

A proverb says...

'One who fails to plan.. plans to fail...."

'Gagal merancang.. merancang kegagalan' - M Nasir & Malique - Mantera Beradu....

But.... what if what we planned is a total failure....?? Grrrrrrrrrr.....

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I had this 'sinful' lunch to cheer myself up..... Mc D Move It Meal...!! Heavenly tastes of Double McChicken could lit up somebody's day.... yupp.... am gonna be fat fat fat...

New countdown begins....

2008-11-21T09:48:00.003+09:00

Despite all the workloads I had in the office.. despite Lya's new skill of "mengamuk-ing" and drives me crazeeee when I'm at home..... I'm in a happy mood this week...

I have a new countdown...!! ngeeee........

All my bags are packed.. I'm ready to go.. lalalalaa......

Oh, kiss me and smile for me

Tell me that you'll wait for me

Hold me like you'll never let me go

Cause Im leavin on a jet plane........ lalalala....

Another BF story....

2008-11-19T15:15:00.005+09:00

And it has been a while when I last talked on my breastfeeding journey.. I called it ‘journey’ since there are lots of ups and downs…

Well, when I first got pregnant, I’ve equipped myself with breastfeeding knowledge… but deep inside, I’ve always thought that BF is a natural thing between a mother and a baby… a “plug n play” thingy.. easy….

WRONG!!!

Breastfeeding is a learning process between a mother and a baby.. and it requires a lot.. and I mean A LOTTTT of effort…… and that is why I truthfully respect mothers who could BF their babies up tilll 2 years.. or more… not to mention who successfully EXCLUSIVELY BF … lagi la haku tabik…

Dalam surat Al Baqarah [2]: 233 disebutkan, "Para ibu hendaklah menyusukan anak-anaknya selama dua tahun penuh, yaitu bagi yang ingin menyempurnakan penyusuan."

I would say I felt pity to the babies who did not get from their mothers.. Personally I would feel less motherly if I don’t give the best to my baby… and it is really heart breaking when some of the mothers “decided” not to BF their babies, even b4 the baby is borned.. no offence, anybody… unless there’s a great excuse not to BF a baby, then I would 100% support working mothers to exclusively BF their babies.. and that’s the main reason why the request for a lactation room in MI*C came up… (thank you ayang who gave full support on this…!! *_* )

I’ve personally heard a lot of.. I’d say…”unacceptable” excuses not to BF… These 3 are the most frequent one…

-“sakit….”
-“leceh”
-“takde tempat nak perah”

I don’t say BF for me is easy… I cried when the midwife massaged me, since the milk wont came out in the 1st week of confinement….I had blisters on my nipples when I just started… Bleeding… Kulit terkopek2… Can you imagine how painful it was… And I was always in tears when Lya started to suck my milk… and I was stomping my feet when she’s sucking on them, and I cried… It was that painful… But it gets easier in time….

When Lya was 3 months old, she refused to be BF when I came back for a 2 days outstation, because my milk supply decreased tremendously.. My MIL kept asking me to give her formula milk… since Lya was continuously crying.. and she couldnt bear to let her cried... but I chose to be “temporary deaf”.. I just listened to Along, instead… I let Lya cried because I know if I stop BF her.. then my milk would decrease more.. and it would be permanently stop… That was what Along experienced.. and mind you.. she had 4 children, and the 4th child is the one that she’s successful of exclusive BF…

I became known to hotel workers when I attended a 2 days course, just because I asked to store my milk in hotel’s refrigerator during the 2 days duration course… (I brought my ice pack… but I felt more confidence the milk is not contaminated when they are kept in a freezer rather than in my cooling bag)

I became known to the office where I attended a 1 week course in Singapore.. when I requested a place to pump out my milk… and a place to store them…

I pumped out my milk, whenever I can, at the aiport, even at my seat in a flight back to KL, when the flight was delayed, and my breast became engorged and painful.. I did that because once I skip a session, the result would be.. my milk supply started to decrease again.. and it takes time to ‘recover’…The airport workers were confused when I brought milk stock but there was no baby.. took me a while to explain to them…

I ate everything that could increase my milk supply… and at one time, I became gemuk gile.. hahaaa.. now I’m still gemuk.. but hey… I managed to lost few kgs last ramadhan.. without affecting my milk supply…! Hehehe…. But now I think I’m gaining back.. haha…

I brought my pumping equipment bag ke hulu ke hilir at the office twice a day.. and being called as ‘beg pramugari’…. Lantaklah…..

Those are few of my breastfeeding experience…. I am no expert in BF.. learning.. still and always am….. thank you to my friends.. (esp Ati.. & Neny.. ) whom always be my friends in need when it comes to BF.. hehehe..

Oh wow.. turned out this was a lil bit long entry… It’s 2 o’clock now.. gtg…

Oh.. here's a pix of our lactation room.. a small one.. but hey.. this is just a start... as long as it has all that a nursing mother requires.. especially a sink and a referigerator.. it is okay... yup.. just okay...

blurr la pulak gambo nih....

Happy 11 months old, Lya Qaisara

2008-11-17T10:25:00.012+09:00

Oh my God.. in a month, my lil cutie pie will be one year old… Awwwwww…. My lil angel has grown up…. Missed her innocent, fragile look when she was still a lil baby… Now …she has become more and more (and more…!) cheeky and mischievous, and at certain times really.. and I mean really tested my patience…. but she’ll always be my beloved lil baby… always my baby…

It has been a while since I talked on her milestones… well, here goes..

- She can walk…!!! Since she was at 10 months old..last weekend, I counted her steps… 25 steps without fall…!! Yippie… good gurll….
- Sukeeee tunjuk perasaan.. Oh, God.. sometimes she could really got into my nerve.. I categorized myself as really patience while handling a baby… or more to handling an ‘infant’…… but ‘toddlerhood zone’ is the time when your patience is really tested, okeh….… You’ll know the true feelings if you have one..!
- Shows what she wants with gestures.. She’s the boss to everyone at home…! She’ll just point her fingers where/what she wants and she’ll get them..
- She’s a chatterbox..! and the most frequent word is ‘tat’… means ‘cat’…. ‘dede’ means ‘daddy’…. Bila nak pandai sebut mummy ni Lya…??
- Still breastfed.. although not exclusively, but most of milk that she takes is mummy’s milk..

These are photos on her 11th months bday... muke bosan sgt at umah, so I brought her to Toys 'r' us.. This lil cutie taknak balik pulak since dah syiok sgt main... adehhh... she was screaming in the middle of people... and people were staring at me mcm aku tak reti jaga anak... adehhh.. i had to bribe her with one toy... but she refused to let me take it to the cashier to pay... Lya.. Lya...

Macam kelakar je Lya pakai skirt... tak sesuaiiii...

Ni fevret biskut Lyaaa.....

Vrooomm.. babai mummy....

ngok ngek ngok ngek...

Mummy... cemane nak turun niee??

Daddy.... errr.. Tantek tak keta nie?

Penat la mummy...

Lya main Cak cak..

Another sleepless night...

2008-11-12T10:15:00.000+09:00

Lya refused to sleep last night.. she woke up @ about 2a.m in the morning.. and wanted to be cuddled, played with my Tupperware, ‘talked’ by herself.. (God knows what she mumbled about…) and even ‘asked’ me to carry her around our bedroom… and downstairs! At least I understood her gestures.. She cried, lembik & lentikkan badan if I bring her to sit on our bed – means that she wants me to carry her around… (Sayang oi… pukul 2 pagi… Nak mummy buat macamana…..!! Mummy tak tauuu…..) At times like this how I wished her daddy is around… He’s always being the one who knows what to do when I’m clueless…

Finally she slept again @ about 4:30a.m….. As I tucked her in.. found myself in tears.. God knows why.. but it feels much better after that…

Hate emotional entry like this… oh well…

Something's hidden inside.....

2008-11-12T09:34:00.003+09:00

I bought a little ‘something’ for myself…yeay!!!

I guess I ‘needed’ it rather than ‘wanted’ it sooo much….. But it is time anyway.. it has been 3 and ½ years since used the previous one…

Lya's new ride....

2008-11-02T13:33:00.004+09:00

Introducing.... Lya's new 'Stride to Ride Walker'...

the great thing is... this infant walker could turn into a toddler ride... I just love any 2 in 1 thingy...

As usual, Lya ala2 jakun when we asked her to walk with it.... siap nangis2 lagik.. after a while, she was almost an expert.. hahaa... almost....

Tantek tak keta baru Lya...?

Ni muke bgn tido, terus nak main keta...

Watch this clip... dia suke gile... excuse the background voices of her auntie, nenek and mummy yg over-excited, okeh..

It's Friday...!! Yeay!!

2008-10-31T16:01:00.005+09:00

Now i know, that bosses are the people who really inspires you to work hard.. This week considered to be the most inefficient week for me, as all 3 bosses in our department weren't around... Normally at times like this we, the so-called 'machai' shall jump with joy, celebrate, and seize the moment... moments that no one will come to you asking you to do this and that, pushing you around and keep bothering you the moment u were just started to 'facebooking'.... (hehe...)

But this week, I spent most of my time @ office on facebooking, until i'm sick of it... and the whole of this week was totally dull... i was in no mood at all to work.. surprisingly now, I felt that I love having bosses in the office to push me around... hahaaaa (gila kah aku??) When they are in the office, then I would feel that the salary I earned at the end of the month is really 'halal'....

During lunch time today, I went to m*dv.. planning to go to Toys 'r' us to find something for Lya.. as it has been a while since i bought a 'learning toy' for her.. and now that she just got well from her fever.... and has started to learn to walk I'm planning to give her something that would encourage her to learn in a more 'funner' way...such as leap frog 4 in 1 musical ice cream truck or playskool step start walk 'n ride or anything like that... (hihi.. bole ye daddy? pweety pleeasee... cian Lya.... smalam dia main tolak2 walker aje.... and dia mmg langsung tanak masuk walker dah...)

I was just about to enter Toys 'r' us, but suddenly i redirected myself to Madam Kwan's just next to the entrance of TrUs... and had a seat all alone by myself... without even looking at the menu, I called the waitress and ordered ice lemon tea and..... this.....!!!!

Nasi Bojari Madam Kwan's

It was not more than 5 minutes later, my order arrived.. and I finished the whole lot of it in less than 10 minutes!!!... OMG... it was so darn delicious... Thank you ayang who introduced me to it last fasting month...... and there goes my diet, ye puan2...oh well.... lantak lah.. sedap gile, okeh...

Will definitely have lunch there again... huhuuu....

Tiring weekend.....

2008-10-29T22:37:00.011+09:00

Last weekend penat gile.. we had our open house, invited quite a number of guests, but just the day before I was flat on bed with terrible cough + fever.. Got it from Lya I guess, because she was down with flu 2 days before... her temperature went up and down for the past 4 days.. including the day we invited guests to our house...

To all who managed to come, thank you soooooo much..... I apologize for not being able to fully entertain all of you since Lya was cranky bcoz of the flu and fever.. at 10 months old, this was the 1st time she had flu with fever... and it was a tough one. she wanted to be cuddled all the time.. and she doesnt want anybody else to dukung her except meeeeee...... naik patah pinggang dibuatnye... plus i, myself was not feeling well.....

yesterday, i brought her to see her paed @ DEMC since we already went to SU clinic twice, but still the fever keep coming back every 4 hours after i gave her medicine.... she had a blood test but luckily she is free from 'denggi'. but paed said there could have been virus infections which caused her fever, so she was given antibiotic and until today, she's still on them.... today, she's still having her flu. but alhamdulillah no fever... i had few sleepless nights since i had to check her temperature every hour, and keep her temperature down by applying wet towels on her head and her entire tiny body.. kesian sgt tgk anak mummy sorang nih....

Ni 1st day Lya demamm.....

Celamat ali layerrr... Usher of the day...

Masa ni okey lagi dgn ubat.. now, everytime nampak ubat, dia dah fobia... baru bawak turun kotak ubat, dia dah nangis2 sambil bawak diri .. pegi bawah meja... balik tiang... dekat dinding.... sambil buat tune sedih + kesian....

skang dah pandai cakap tepon.. sume mende jadik henpon dia... termasuk le themometer ni haaa...

This was how she slept ptg masa open house... dah penat sgt...

Lya with her new best friend... a weird looking yellow elephant her auntie bought from Phuket... ngeeeeeee.....

Org tua2 kate, budak demam nak dapat akal baru... ni la yg dia dapat agaknyeee...now, she can stand up by herself and stays in that position for few seconds.... sambil lambai2 or tepuk2 tgn, okeh.. wakakaaa...

And 2 cute budlets just appeared... kiut gile okeh... and it was sooo painful since she loves to bite during feeding time... sakit woo...

Lya jgn demam2 lagi, okeh... I know, I went 'unstable' and easily yelled at people when she's sick.... and at certain time, almost cried... I was just sooooo terribly worrieeeddd and terrifiiieeed, especially when her daddy's not around.... oh well....

Almost completed.... Yeayy!

2008-10-24T09:58:00.002+09:00

After over 4 months of waiting… since Lya was just 6 months old…( goshh.. that long, huh…) Finally, it is almost completed….though it is just a small one, it’s okay… trying to keep reminding myself; there is no easy way to get what you really one.. It is not the room that I pictured it would be.. but…it is okay…. Just okay…. Well at least better to have something than nothing…

Life's back to routine.....

2008-10-05T18:25:00.007+09:00

Goshh..it feels like yesterday we went to klia for break-fast and pick up daddy Lya.. and these 11 days, we fast together, and spent 4 days of Raya together, how time flies... but last nite, we went to klia again... to sent daddy off to Japan again... haihhh...and tomorrow, the normal routine will commence... mencciii...

aaaaa....

amik kau... buat macam umah sendiri dah... meja kfc pun dipanjatnye

photo taken by bz paparazzi...

nak itott.... hmmmm

Lya windu daddy............

Selamat ari rayerr...

2008-10-05T14:38:00.011+09:00

So, I wrote only one Ramadhan entry... that bad huh.. i have lots of berbuka pictures, but could not find the timeto upload it here.... takpolaa... trus raya entry je lah...

This year's Raya was the most meaningful, as we get to celebrate together as one whole family.. with si kenit Lya... Thank God dear hubby managed to take his leave, although it was a short raya with him.. kalau tidak,nangih la hakuu... anyway... Daddy Lya has gone back to Japan last nite.. sigh....

Anyhow, 2 night b4 raya we went back to Taiping and celebrated Raya there.. this year we made our own lemang.. sedap gile.. muakaka... tgk la sapa tukang jaga api....the best lemang ever.. at par with lemang arwah Atuk dulu... hihii..

Lurvvee this pix..!

Si tomot momot Lya makan kek coklat

Daddy masak lemangg...

Ampun ekk....

Happy family kuu...

Selamat hari rayer to all.. maaf zahir batin....

Happy 9 month old, Lya Qaisara...

2008-09-16T14:19:00.009+09:00

Today is Lya's 9th month birthday... This was how she wakes up this morning.. with a big grin on her face... bangun sahur sekali dgn haku.. huhuuu... Alhamdulillah she's a healthy and cheeky lil girl... berkat susu ibu... and becoming more and more clingy to me... and going to work every morning is becoming more and more difficult.. she'll cry or at least merengek before I go... haiihhh....

Mummy... Lya dah 9 month.. I've grown upp...!

nite before, she woke up like every hour, and I was like zombie at the office, trying to finish one drawing review, took me the whole day! tu pun tak abih jugak lagi.. it was a thin drawing, and it took me one whole day to finish it.. betape tak efisiennye...

By the way... this was what we had last weekend.. for berbuka.. all home made punye aaa... takyah gi restoran.. saje nak bagi terlur sket bulan2 posa nih...

Siakap Sweet Sour

Udang goreng basah

Siakap steam ala Thai... tak sempat nak decorate2 mcm chef wan, okeh.. yg penting, sodappp.. muakakakaa...

And lots and lots more... huuuuhuuu.

6th Ramadhan Entry

2008-09-06T06:23:00.005+09:00

It's nice to be in this Ramadhan, I get to go back as early as 4 pm... That's what the company has granted during this holy month.. but my main reason to reach as early as possible is just to get to Lya.. and let MIL cook for breakfast.. Lya's soooo demanding and hard to handle now... it's either you have to dukung2 her & bawak jln2 or let her freeee.. and she'll explore every inch of the house... bawah krusi... pegi pintu... crawled sampai dapur... even dah start panjat tangga...

There was once, when she was sleeping,my MIL went to sweep the garage, thinking that she just fall asleep and will not wake up for another 1/2 hr... suddenly, her head appeared at the door (macam kura2...) and screamed "eeeeyyyyyy'... ni sah2 bangun2 tido, thinking, "mana sume org pegi ni...?" and heard the sound of sweeping outside... and she went to look for it.... "ooo.. sini rupe nye yeee... eeeeyyy nape tinggal aku tido sorg2 kat dalam aaaa..." haaaiiih...

yesterday evening, I arrived home @ about 5:30pm. normally, I would feed her and bathe her.. and it is sooo challenging,since tgn ku pun dah lembik late in the evening (puasa la katakan), and dia pulak tgh lasak and kene pegang kuat2 time mandi, or she'll dive in her bath tub... yesterday as usual, I put her in her baby cot (tranformed into playpen now...) and perform my Asar prayer and I saw her doing this....

Tengah tengok bawang putih bawang merah

Heeesshh... kecian bwg putih tu, Mummy...

Mummy kacau aaaa

she has started to stand while holding onto something few days ago... but yesterday, dia sanggup berdiri sambil tengok tv.. lama pulak tu...

Yesterday she's already climbed 2 stairs.. with me watching her at the back actually... takut budak sorg ni tergolek....no-no... this is not good.... I've to start letak pagar agaknye... that's y she can't be left alone at all..... bahaye2...

It is the most precious moment to watch her progressing day by day... Now, I wud understand why parents would scream in excitement everytime their baby is progressing something... mmg rase nak jerit2 excited kalau tgk dia pandai buat something for the 1st time...

Its just that I wish her Daddy is here together to watch her.....

Salam Merdeka.. &.. Selamat Berpuasa....

2008-08-31T13:48:00.003+09:00

Lama sgt dah aku tak update blog....

Sindrom malas dah stat balik...

Anyhow..caye nak ucapkan selamat ari merdeka.. & celamat berpuace.. puace.. jgn takpuace.... Lya & Mommy mintak ampun kat daddy.. & cume kawan2 yeee......

terawih jomm...

The story of a lactation room...

2008-07-17T15:11:00.002+09:00

I’ve been exclusively breastfed Lya for the last 6 months and now that she has started her solids I found out my milk supply started to decreased. Plus.. I have to face difficulties every time I sneaked in the vacant GM room to do my pumping session which is twice daily…. There was once, I even stucked there for about ½ hour after finished expressing my milk just because one of the managers in the next department was discussing something outside the room with his staffs. I wouldn’t dare to leave the room in front of them, or I will end up have to answer questions like what was I doin in that room, or at least I have to swallow weird looking stares from them (which I already used to..). That empty room shouldn’t be occupied, any way….Again, I have to play hide and seek using the pantry, to wash my pumping equipment, since I DO NOT like to clean everything in the toilet..! Don’t think that’s appropriate to wash equipment for preparing my baby’s food.

Now… Alhamdulillah, my effort to set up a lactation room in M*SC has been approved by the big boss of HR and this mini project has started…. (yeay…!) The properties department has begun to get the quotations from the contractors for this job… Last Monday, I’ve been called by properties dept to discuss on the layout for this room, and there I was, discussing the matter with 3 guys… who apparently know nothing on this, if I don’t feed the info to them.

Well, that’s not the issue anyway… even most of the nursing mothers here in the company have very lil info on the “existence” of lactation room at workplace… Anyways… I was disappointed to see the layout….. the room is too small, with only one station, and they are planning to take whatever “stock” they have for the room.. e.g. table (which are used for caterings…!), chairs, etc… just to save budget... Can u imagine how disappointed I was…

I’ve informed them minimum requirement for the lactation rooms, but they didn’t even bother to look at it ( I think!). then I requested to extend the room, just to make it bigger, to fit at least 2 stations with curtains/partitions between the stations.. I was soooo pissed off when one of the guys there said while laughing, “ Why do you need such big room… why do you need partitions, anyway… what is there to be embarrassed of…. The persons who are “doing” it are all women anyway…what’s wrong “doin” it together??” Is it tooo difficult to have just curtains? He has no respect for women at all… sakitnye hati kuu… the way he’s discussing this matter like, he’s making a joke out of it… which was tak kelakar langsung…

I was about to bergaduh2 with him… questioning is it becoz of the budget.. that they are doing this for the sake of just doing it… Why is the company willing to have smoking room at EVERY floor. While what we were asking for just ONE ROOM for this… I was about to raised my voice when the other guy clamed me down… sebaik ade mamat tu.. kalau tak … kalau takk… huhu…

marahnye akuu… grrrrr...

bosannyeee.....

2008-07-09T10:34:00.004+09:00

hidup kembali bosan.. dear hubby has gone back.... to the so called country of the rising sun... i just hate these feelings..

sad....

and empty.....

Mari jawab soalan matematik...

2008-06-27T14:46:00.006+09:00

Pagi tadi, ade sorang kawan baik aku bagi soalan nie....

"Soalan mudah dulu la… tak leh jawab kalo mmg kene gi amik spm sekali lagi.
a) What is the x-intercept and the y-intercept for 3x + y = 6
b) Solve the quadratic equation 2x(3x – 4) = x + 1. Give your answer correct to three decimal places
c) Solve 16^(4x−1) = 2^(3x−2)
d) Numbers m + 2 , n - 1 , 11 are the first three terms in an arithmetic progression. If the total of these numbers is 24, find the value of m and value of n. "

Sungguh tak kusangka betape seronottnye nak menjawab soalan tuh... sampai sanggup kutinggalkan kerje2 yg sbenarnye urgent, utk jwb soalan2 nih haaa... (Ampun boss...) haihh... seronottnye zaman skolah dulu....

AKU SCORE 100% TUUU....!!!! YEY YEYY....

Colmar Tropicale

2008-06-25T10:24:00.007+09:00

Went to Colmar Tropicale, Bukit Tinggi last Saturday, with Dodi & family. This was my 2nd visit to Colmar, the first time was with all my ex housemates, when we were all still single and solo molo... that was like.. how many years ago...? 3-4 year? cant remember.. bile aa neny?

Anyway, nothin much difference when I last went there. The rabbit farm... the japanese tea house... still the same.. anyway, we just pass through japanese tea house.. tak masuk pun... huhu..

My girl... (err.. most people kata macam boy ajek.. hik hik.. muke daddy...)

Us.. with Damia yang kiyut menyelit kat situ... hihi

Budak botak yg notty....

Dodi.. pinjam anak ko jap.. fotogenik sangat budak nih... geram aku.. kakak ipar Lya....haha

hmmm...

Happy Father's Day

2008-06-23T16:50:00.014+09:00

Babah... happy Father's day..... next weekend Lya balik tepeng jumpe atuk yee..... yeyeyey.....

Had a celebration of Father's day @ Teapot Cafe... Happy Father's Day, dear hubby.... thank you for being the bestest daddy to Lya... (Err... I still owe you the present eh...?)

Daddy.....

Epiii Father's Day, Daddyyy.......ngeeee..

Lya.. with her 2nd cuss..

Zaeemmm.. bangunn aaaa.. kata nak main came2.. asik tidoo je aa.. jaem niee..

I love this pic....!

Ngeh ngeh ngeh...

Mommy and my lil elmo...

Cakk...!!!

Daddy... jgn kacau Lya minum susu.......!!

seronottt yerrr....

I'm back...!

2008-06-22T09:17:00.009+09:00

Halo people...

Sorry for the long silence... kepala hotak ku berserabut lately... and i'm in a not proper mood to blog... but now.. dah ok ckit...

anyhow.. here are few updates... yg dah basi, actually...

Japan Trip...

Last month was a blast... me and Lya spent nearly 2 weeks in Japan sempena golden week holiday there.. travelling alone with Lya was okay, surprisingly.. I thot she's going to make me miserable in the 6 hours flite, but no... she slept most of the time, and didnt mind at all when i left her to the steward/stewardess... Lya enjoyed being entertained by the steward actually..(huhu..) and japan is the most baby friendly country that i know.. (macam la aku byk sgt travel negare lain eh..) but yeah... i just love the services there.. at the airport, the nursing rooms are superb... i didnt even have to give her bottle milk at all.. there were always places for me to breastfeed her peacefully...

strollers are always available for us to utilize when we were at the airport... and the ground assistance that i requested were soooo helpful... they even helped me to push Lya in the stroller, carried my luggage, and even my hand luggage.. sampai haku melenggang aje.. takyah bawak ape2.... ngeeeee...

During 11 days we stayed there, We managed to go to only few places... doesnt matter.. the most important is the moment we spent with just the 3 of us... sempat la gi fukoka(Tosu & Marine World), andUniversal Studio Japan trip was greaaattt....! altho to travel with a 5 month old baby to places like that was so challenging, but anyhow i love USJ! Thank you ayang.. bawak kitorg gi sane.. the hotel we stayed for 2 nights was just a 2-3 minutes walking distance to USJ.. hihii....

We had lots of photos there, but i'll upload them later.. projek collage ku dah tak berjalan lagi since haku balik KL... laptop tak power laa.. tak best langsung nak buat projek edit gamba...

in the mean time.. aku upload yg ni je lah dulu, okeh...

TOSU Premium Outlet..

Mr popeye @ USJ... ngeeeee

Lya @ Glover Garden.. hahaa.. berzaman duduk sana, ni la baru aku sampai Glover Garden... padahal kat sbelah rumah ajek...

Master Graduate Programme...

This programme created history in M*SC... with 4 budak derhaka.. and 1 "casualty".... Best of luck to N*zri... His decision to resign as a result of disappointment to the company...was totally unecpected... but understandable... takpe.. rezeki ade di mana2...

Finally I've decided to NOT taking the so called "Company's offer" to do the master graduate programme.. (and I'm one of the budak2 derhaka... huhu....) though deep in me, I really do want to take one step ahead, to further my studies... and what the "company" has offered was undeniably a good opportunity... I was really in a big dilemma (and that explain why hotak ku soo berserabut lately...with all the office workload.. and this master programme issue...) but... i felt that taking another commitment will just drag me one step apart from Lya... i'm not using Lya as an excuse, but that was what i really felt... even , now, having to go just for a one day business trip.. or having to stay extra hours at the office, and knowing her spending her time with nenek and bibik more than me, really really tear my heart.... especially, when i got back from work late evening, MIL kept telling me, the progressed she had made each day....

The offer was tempting anyway, but wrong timing.. with dear hubby not around, and with a 6 month old Lya, I think, NOT to take the opportunity is the best decision we've made. The offer could come anytime, but this is the ONLY time that I could get to see Lya growing... she wont grow any younger... and a baby's progress is sooo fast... sudah la daddy nye takde to watch all her milestones... what would happen, if i had to spend the weekends and late evening at the office if i took the offer? Takpe lah.. God willing, I will have other chances... hopefully.....

Lya Qaisara

This the most enjoyable topic to write about... It'll always makes me smile when just starting to think about her.... She's 6 months 1 week now... let's just talk about her milestone...

- Rolling, rollin & rollin.... she loves rolling... and i wouldnt dare to leave her on our bed, not even one sec, becauze, the minute you turn your head away, she would be on the other side of the bed... and pakaikan dia baju was reallllyyyy difficult nowadays.. and the moment i finished dressing her up, i would totally be exhausted... all the struggling to keep her still just to get her dressed, really really tiring, okeh.. and she would just scream and cry if I restrict her movement.... haiihhh.. penat la mummy....

- Reverse... anak ku sudah pandai gostan... or go astern... huhu... instead of moving forward, she would stretch her hands and push herself backward... she knows how to maneuver... but still figuring how to move forward... kesian anak ku kompius... nak aje aku tolong tolak dia gi depan...

- started the crawling position... sudah pandai angkat bontot.. and goyang2 ke depan and belakang... I wish I had the opportunity to capture the moment dia goyang2 bontot.. sgt kiyut, okeh... will paste them later when I had the chance.

- recognize cats.... huahua.. we are still figuring out whether she's afraid of cats.... or.... love them... because the moment we call "Domok..." she'll started to "merengek" or.. cemane nak citer ni eh... when she sees Domok, she'll cry + laugh... haa.. cemane tuh... maybe dia geli kot... anyhow, she'll smile excitedly if she sees cats on her books/flash cards... meaning that she really recognizes them...!

Okay, thats all for now.. i didnt have the time to upload photos of Lya yet.. will do them later okeh...

Lya cayang daddy......

kenape aku malas update blog???

2008-06-05T13:11:00.005+09:00

Ini adelah antara sebab musabab aku tak update blog.

- Intenet kat umah tu lembap gilerrrrrr.... nak upload 1 gambo pun amik masa berejam2.. haihhhh... streamyx... streamyx....

- Kat opis pulak bz gilerr... bos pulak dok sejengkal dpd haku... camno nak bukak blog....

- Aku penin pasal master nih... nak amik ke tanak, nak amik ke tanak... nak amik ke tanakkk.... helpp.....

- Aku takde mood nak blog..

- Kat umah, Lya suke main lompat si katak lompat... bz ngan Lya sampai telupe nak hapdet blog..

- Sukati aku la update ke tanak.. ni blog aku... kakakaka....

I loooove these two silly people......!!!

Happy mother's day...

2008-04-27T18:24:00.007+09:00

Having Lya in my life really brings changes in my life.. and i mean lots of them... that include my friendships... interests that i once shared with my old friends.. like window shopping.. hanging out at kedai mamak to have roti canai and teh tarik after office hours.... goin out to see movies.... jungle trekking, mountain climbing.. treasure huntings.. (hehe...) are no longer mesh in my new lifestyle.. well.. at least not for now...

i know.. i know.. i have been talking bout Lya all the time.. but i just couldnt help it.. i tried as much as i can to stay the same, but i couldnt... i just cant abandon all thoughts of Lya and i dont expect my friends to want to hear me talking bout motherhood all the time...

To some of my friends, sorry if i may have drifted apart from you guys... but at the same time, i'm totally glad that i have made a new orbit of friends.. Lya brought me closer to some people... especially when i need some helps with motherhood...cant believe, i almost cried talking to one of lactation consultant, when i poured my breastfeeding problem to her..

Anyhow... just to share... once when you become a parent... these are things that may change.....

1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms.

2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid. (True.... you'll become afraid of everything.. everytime when Lya's cryin or sick.. i'd become totally worried.. and afraid.. what did i do wrong...?)

3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices. (Yup... totally true...i dont even bother to care if i dont get to catch the latest movie.. or dont to get to watch my favourite tv programme...)

4. You respect your body ... finally.

5. You respect your parents and love them in a new way.

6. You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own. (100% true... i'd cry too if Lya's cryin if she's having fever or sick..)

7. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child.

8. You lose touch with the people in your life whom you should have banished years ago.

9. Your heart breaks much more easily. (Uhuh... especially when it comes to baby... anything that related to them touch me..in a different way now..)

10. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day. (That explains why i talk bout Lya all the time..)

11. Every day is a surprise.

12. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!)

13. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself. (totally truee....!!! i always bring Lya to the big mirror and instead of looking at my own face, i'll just smile if i see her smiling at her own reflection)

14. You become a morning person. (haha... yup.. my day will statrt as early as 5 a.m..!!)

15. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power.

16.You finally realize that true joy doesn't come from material wealth.

17. You'd rather spend so much on baby's clothes rather than those shoes that you've been dying to have.

18.You don't mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night. (in fact.. i go to bed as early as 9-10 p.m everyday...!)

19. You realize that the 15 pounds you can't seem to get rid of are totally worth having.( i know.. i know.. i looked fat after i gave birth to Lya.. but i wont try to go for diet.. since i still breastfeed her.. takpe lah gemuk cikit ni... nnt2 je lah haku diet ye..)

20. You discover an inner strength you never thought you had.

21. You no longer rely on a clock — your baby now sets your schedule. ( And that explains why if Lya did not wake up early, everybody in our house is late..!)

22. You give parents with a screaming child an 'I-know-the-feeling' look instead of a 'Can't-they-shut-him-up?' one. (300% agree....!!!)

23. Your cat — who used to be your 'baby' — becomes just a cat. (That's why Demok has become kucing jalanan nowadays with luka sana sini... )

24. You take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you'll be late. (I do this all the time..!!)

25. You realize that you can love a complete stranger.

26. When you think you cant fall in love again.... you actually did.... in a totally different way...

Lya Qaisara.. 4 month 2 weeks... photo taken just after i wrote this entry... love you cayang...

2008-04-13T21:24:00.010+09:00

Halo people...

It has been a while... lately I was too busy.. and dont hav much time to blog.. (or am i the one who do not make the time for blogging?) it's just that i dont usually blog at the office, and at home, my lil lovey dovey, Lya Qaisara is getting bossier than ever.... but actually, i just love being bossed by her.. haha...

few updates...

Angah...

29th March, Angah got engaged... (finally...) I went back to my hometown in Taiping.. and went to Sg Dua, where the ceremony took place... since his fiance's still studying, they plan to get engaged for about one and a half year.. (iskk lama nye...)

Our side gave 9 dulangs (includes sejadah, baju nikahtelekung, cincin risik, cincin tunang, etc..) and Liyana (Angah's fiance) side gave back 11 dulangs... (comprises cake, some sweets, chocolate, fruits... ghee..lupa dah.... tu laa.. sapa suruh lama tak update blog... haha...) I gave Angah a cake, as one of the hantarans....

lawa kan kek tu,kan, kan...?

along tgh sarung cincin... haha.. blurred photo.. since Lya was on my lap when i took this photo..

Lya was okay in the beginning of the ceremony, but towards the end, she was a lil bit cranky.. and when i checked.. she pooped...! kui kui.... maka, terpaksa la haku buat mcm rumah sendirik, pegi basuh berak dia kat one of the rooms in the house.. Anyhow, since i was too bz entertaining si kecik nih, i dont even hav one photo with Angah's fiance... ngeeee...

Ni lah muke budak jepun baru lepas u' ukk..

Work

Nothin much to update, really... my job's getting more and more busy lately, and i'm tryin to adjust with my workload...(but still aku balik kul 6pm, paling lambat pun, okeh... kekeke) but hopefully i wont be assigned out of town at the moment... not in the near future.. last month i was out of office twice in 2 weeks...! Bintulu trip was boring... well... its bintulu.. what do u expect... it became worst when both my flights.. to and fro was delayed.. more than an hour.. isshkk... think Malaysia airlines should improve their services, okeh... betape busannye aku jadik pak pacak kat airport tu...

Singapore trip was okay.. it was my 2nd time to Singapore actually, but i didnt even have the chance to go to the medilion... anyhow, i managed to ran down to Hard rock cafe singapore to buy few HRC tshirts.. and went walking alone at the orchard road during the nights, didnt snap any photo coz it was raining...

its appraisal time, this month, but since i'm not working for the last financial year, aku rilek aje, while everybody else busy preparing their SEP.... huhu.. this year takde la bonus utk kuuu... isskk...

Lya Qaisara

She's 4 months and 2nd week now...haihhh... cepatnye anak mommy membesar...last 3 weeks during her 3rd month jab, her weight was 5.85kg... few updates on her milestone :

she's an attention seeker... that explains why i dont hav much time to blog lately... she'll cry whenever she sees nobody around her....
easily distracted during feeding time... she'll stop drinking her milk if she hears any noise or anybody passes by.... end up, i hav to feed her, quietly in our room, so that she gives full concentration while taking her meals.
she loves to hold up her cute lil arms and play with her cute lil hands and cute tiny fingers, and... did i mention she's cute..? maybe she just discovered that she has hands... hihi...

everything on her is tiny and cute.....

suke main air liur and sembur2... ishkkk... abih basah lenjun baju dia..

Anak mommy menyembur2....

dah meniarap...! yeay....!

cubaan kali ke-3....

Situ Sana Sini....

2008-03-09T21:40:00.008+09:00

Hi people...

Udah lama aku tak membelog..... Well... Hav been quite bz at the moment.. last week had a 2 days course at Sheraton Subang... Tomorrow, I'll be flyin to Bintulu for 2 days... Will go onboard Puteri Delima... huhu.. (lama sudah aku tak naik kapal... ) And next week I'll be goin to Singapore for a 2 day course... ish.. Last time, travelling was really fun , since you could step out of the office to enjoy a lil bit different environment from the routine tasks.... but now.. a trip for only 2 days, feels like tooooo long 4 me... I know that I'm gonna miss my lil baby soooo much.... Guess this is what every working mom will face.. A dilemma between career and family... 4 me, if given the chance, I'd choose to spend as much time as I can with Lya.... Even goin to the office everyday, I could hardly wait to go back home to hold her....

Anyhow.. here's few updates on what we did during th weekend :

Election...

For the first time in my life, haku pegi mengundi... hahaaa.... At first, I was too lazy to go.. but at about 3pm, then only i decided.. what the heck.. if i dont vote today, I would hav to wait for another 4-5 years... Weheww.. masa tu I'll be... 34? 35?? Baru nak 1st time mengundi? oh, tidak.... so, I brought Lya along.. went all the way to Bangi just for a 5 minutes job... hahaa.. salah hakuu.. sape suh tak tukar address.... I registered with SPR, back when I was studying in Uniten.. which is near to Bangi lah kan... anyways.. Bangi, PAS yg menang... huhu... and dont ask which party I voted coz undi adalah rahsia.. kekeke...

Muhd Jazlan Zaeem...

After that, we went to Alamanda to shop for newborn gifts for Lya's 2nd cousin... I didnt know what to buy, since Johan and Zura seems like had everything ready for their lil prince... So, just bought a thermometer since they havent bought one.. hihi.. penting wooo mende nih...

hihi.. mohd boboy...

Yeay! Lya dah ade geng...

My MIL bought a newborn shoes and ball for boboy.. Blue in colour.... comei sangat... end up, Lya got her first shoes too..... Tapi bukan haku yg belikan... her Uncle Apit yg beli... tengkiyu angkengg... (Lya panggil uncle dia "angkeng") Nnt Lya bleh join angkeng men futsal... hihi...

Lya's first shoes...

As usual, if Lya got anything new, she'll be sooo excited... we put on her shoes, saiz besar ckit aje.. and she looked sooo happy... tersengih2 aje.. and in the car, she kept on angkat2 kaki dia.. and stared at her new shoes dengan muke pelik2....

Sampai tertido makcik nih....

Baby giant..

At the hospital, I put Lya in Zaeem's cot... huahuaa... dah tak muat dah baby cot tuh.. tapi dia telebih excited duduk dalam tuh... asik tersengih2 ajek...

Kena cucuk agii....

2008-02-23T17:10:00.006+09:00

Today we went to DEMC.. again.... for 2nd month jab for Lya... She has been mommy's brave gurl... tak nangis pun.... her weight is 5.1kg now.. and height 61cm...

err..mommy... where 're we goin...?

whats up doc....?

Ni muke dia kat dlm keta, after the injection... dunno why, dia asik tersengih2 jek cemni.... gambo blurr sebab dia tak reti diam....

Takde tajuk...

2008-02-19T20:54:00.013+09:00

It has been nearly 2 weeks since I last blogged.. It's not that i hav nothin to blog, it's just that i'm in nooooo mood at all to write... Guess the lazy sindrome has strucked... Just few updates :

Back to work...!

As u all know,I've been on my 1 year unpaid leave, but on 15th feb, my leave ended... Gee.. time flies soooo fast... Seem's like yesterday I said goodbye to my colleagues b4 i went off to Japan... so last friday, had to report to my new boss.. since the company policy doesnt allow husband & wife to stay in 1 department.. (huhu.. aku pulak yg kena halau dpd department...) so I hav to move to other department, which is just next to my last department... So, guess I still see the same faces everyday since my new deparment still on the same floor, jiran aje..... To my surprise, lots of people, some of them I barely talked to, were asking when did I come back from Japan (wahh.. fofular jugak aku ni rupenye...)... and some of them were asking how's my baby... and some even asked whether i've got pregnant yet (hehe...)... and when i answered i've just delivered Lya 2 months ago, they gave me these gestures:

"eh.. tak berubah pun..."
"sama jek mcm b4 bersalin..."
"tak mcm org baru lepas beranak pun..."
Which really lit up my day... hehe... its either i hav gained my original shape b4 i got pregnant... or i'm already fat b4 i even got pregnant... haha....

Anyway, it felt so good to be back at work again.. feeling both fresh and blurred at the same time.. hahaa.. fresh to start my new work.. and blurred on my jobscope after given speech from my new boss (huhu... ape laaa yg bos aku ckp nih...)

Ex-housemates + boney gathering.....

After planning for sooo long... at last, we succeeded to organize our first ever gathering.. Everybody managed to come with lots of food... for details, see Neny's blog.. hehe.. (see... told ya I'm in lazy mood...) Anyhow, I faced lots of challenge to bring Lya to the gathering, since my MIL doesnt seem too happy to allow me to drive alone with Lya... At first she wanted to come along, then, she had this kenduri, so, she cant... then she asked bibik to follow me.. but I said its okay... I can manage.. ( I think!) Bibik is supposed to be on leave every Sunday, anyway... Then, she asked my SIL to accompany me to Mis's house... adehh... Its not that I dont like any of them to come along.. but I think I CAN drive alone.. and I HAV to try anyway... dont wanna be such a troublesome to them, whenever I wanted to bring Lya to anywhere, somebody had to be the chauffer ke?... adeh.. hopefully things will get better as Lya grows a lil bit older.. (she's only 2 months old by the way...) Hopefully I can gain trusts from people around me to take Lya anywhere I can without anybody accompanying me.... hmm...

Cupcakes atot... yummehh..

The girls and babies..

Anyway, its good to finally meet my exhousemates, Boney and their families... really hope that we can do this more frequent, yea!

Lya Qaisara

I'm 100% adorable...!! ngeh ngehh...

She's already two months old, and this Saturday, we'll visit DEMC again for her 2nd month jab.... Few updates on her :

She "talks" more frequent than before, and starting to raise her voice... dah bising dah rumah if she's awake... but of course, somebody has to entertain her all the time....

Gets attracted to her toys and started to get focused to them... looked both confused and fascinated simultaneously when I put her on her play bouncer or her playgym. Sometimes, sampai berkerut2 dahi when she looks at her toys (as if thinking.. ape menda laa nie...?)

Sukeee sangat main air liur..... sampai basah2 baju... I think i got all the things that i craved for, when i was pregnant back in Japan last time... (huh, sampai durian 100 hengget sebijik tu pun dear hubby belikan, okeh... mengidam punye pasal) nape ek, dia suke jugak men air liur? She's like, drooling all the time when she's awake...!

She's a short sleeper during the day.. but can stretch her sleep up to 5 hrs during the night... (baik, anak mommy... taknak kacau mommy tido mlm2) Now, I had to wake her up) if dia tido lagi la...) at 5-6 a.m before i go to work, to breastfeed her... but she goes back to sleep until about 10:00a.m...then only takes her bath...

Suke mandi... bath time with Lya is really fun...! So i take the opportunity whenever I'm at home to give her bath.. she smiles when I put her into her bathtub..senyum2 aje dia.. and likes jerk her arms and push her legs in the water... sometimes, bleh slip kalau tak pegang dia bebetul..!

Responses with "uuu..." and "aaaa...." sound whenever i sing Barney song to her... hihi.. comei sgt...

Getting chubbier and chubbier each day.. I can barely see her neck..! covered by her cheek yg dah tembam tuu.... syok peluk2 dia mcm teddy bear....

8 facts about me...! I've been tagged

2008-02-05T14:49:00.000+09:00

Adehh.. this is the 1st time somebody tagged me.. Time kasih la neny... sebab tagged aku.. sampai pecah kepala aku dok pikir pasal nih sebab aku tak tau ape nak tulih.. hua hua... mwngikut rule nye,aku kena tag 8 org lagik... tapi aku tak tau nak tag sapa... haha...

Anyway.. here goes...

8 Random Facts About Me..

Masa sopping baju/seluar, slalunye aku tak reti nak decide kaler ape yg lawa.. (dlm ertikata lain aku ni rambang mata.... kui kui...) lets say ade satu blouse nih aku sukee, aku musti kompius nak amik kaler ape.. last2 aku amik 2 blouse yg sama, kaler lain2...so, aku ade byk suar/baju yg patern sama, but 2 kaler yg berbeza...( ishkk..korg paham dak ape yg aku cakap nih?) Kengkadang, kalau korg perasan, byk baju kurung masa raya pun, aku ade 2 pasang.. pattern sama.. kaler je lain2.. keke....
Sebijik mcm neny.. aku pun perasan macho gak... bergunung2 telah ku daki... (chehh... kunonn..) aku sorg je ikut jejak langkah bapak aku... suke activity naik2 gunung nih.... nak aku senaraikan ke gunung2 yg pernah kudaki? ish ishh... Gunung Tahan, Gunung Korbu (3 kali panjat tuuu.... susah woo gunung nih.. tak caya panjattlaaa.... ), Gunung Yong Belar (uish... gunung ni pun payah), Gunung Ledang ( 2 kali tuu... ni trek yg paling aku sukee...), Gunung Buah, Gunung Nuang, Gunung Gayong, Gunung Bintang.... Tu je lah yg aku ingat gunung2 yg penah ku panjat...hihi... the latest, aku daki Gunung Aso kat jepun... huahuaa.. tapi naik keta jek... kekeke.....
Walaupun aku suke naik gunung, aku ni ekceli penakut... tambah2 kalau bab tgk citer hantu.. kui kui.. kalau nengok, slalunye tutup sbelah mata... tu pun kena ade org teman aku tgk... Aku tgk citer "Jgn pandang belakang" tu je, terbayang2 hantu dia dlm sminggu...
The main reason aku amik A-level dulu, nak pegi UK ialah sebab kakak aku gi UK... kekeke.. centu laa aku jawab masa interview JPA dulu.. kui kui... sebaik dapat... dapat JPA je laa... gi UK nye tak dapat pun... keke...
Kalau org lain ade cite2 nak bukak kedai... aku pun ade laa... cite2 aku nak bukak kedai fotostet.... huhu... at least ade gak laa cite2 buat bisnes...
Hobi aku tengok hujan... especially kalu ujan tgh lebat gile.... ala2 jiwang laa gitu... penah skali masa form 4 kat asrama, tgh ujan lebat gile.. aku pun kuar dorm.. nak temenung tgk ujan... sedar2 bumbung blok depan asrama aku melayang... (sebaik tak melayang kena aku...) hua huaa.... rupenye tgh ribut.. huhu.. abih aku kena marah ngan bebudak dorm, tarik aku masuk dorm... "kot ye nak jiwang tgk ujan pun, jgn le masa ributt...." hihi...
Aku suke makan sambal tumis ikan kelii....... sodapp.....
Aku suke gi soping & window soping sorg2.... sbb aku rasa lagi free kalau gi sorg2.. hihi.. sukati je nak gi mana, & beli ape.. and aku rasa sangat gumbira kalau dapat besoping sorg2... tension reliever... hihi...

From Taiping with love....

2008-02-02T14:02:00.000+09:00

Nearly one week since i'm back in taiping... huhu... after one year i went off to Japan... now i came back to my birthplace.... missed the cool weather and the calm atmospehere in Taiping... though, some people might say that this place is too quiet, (or in other word, boring town..) it's okay.. at least i can find peace here.. away from KL hectic life and busy traffics... to date, Giant and Tesco are already here in Taiping.. haha.. kire dasat laa for a small town.. (i've been to Giant, but Tesco blum agi..)

Nearly every evening rained here.. Hujan mencurah2, but the heat, still i cant stand... the fans are on 24 hours a day... Guess that's why Lya was down with fever last two days....

Cian dia.. demam2 pun kena snap photo jugak...

Her highest temperature when I checked her at home was 37.9 degrees, but i didnt want to risk anything, so brought her to see the doctor... doctor tak buat ape pun lagik, just took her temperature but she's already screaming ala2 budak kena dera....until the doctor had to wait for her to finish cryin for one round, than checked her heartbeat.. again.. she was screaming macam kena cubit... and again, doctor had to wait for another round, then only checked her tummy... haiyooott... sapa ajar anak mommy jerit cemtu... Went back home, and forced her to take the medicne, but she didnt only keluarkan balik ubat tu.. dia sembur2 ala2 air pancut kuar dari mulut dia.... adehh... hav to polish up my skill on giving the medicine...

Arini Lya dah cehat......

Lya dah cehat le... takmo makan ubat agii... tak cedapp...

3 more days to go... hehe

2008-01-25T12:52:00.001+09:00

Breastfeeding

Some of my frens have been asking me on how am i doing with my milk stock... so far dah ade banyak ni aje...

Susu... susu....

That is after nearly 2 weeks I've started pumping to stockup my milk... Maybe to some people, pumping is easy... but for me, it takes so much of hardwork to stockup that amount... especially when I'm feeding her directly nowadays.. Ada sekali tu, I nearly cried when my milk was thrown away.. coz my MIL thot susu basi after few days... adehh.. pumping is soooo hard then suddenly, susu kena buang.. ishkk.. sape tak sedih... huhu... well, it's my fault after all not telling her upfront that breastmilk can last up to 3 months when stored in freezer.. 2 days when stored in referigerator... and 4 hours at room temperature...

Now, I managed to pump only about 5 Oz per day... that is twice a day.. hav to get up at about 5-6 a.m coz that's when I felt that I can pump the most.. and another time in the evening.. when Lya was sleeping... tu pun.. petang2 dapat 1 oz aje... coz she drinks almost every hour during the days... and her nenek and unyang kept asking me to campur2 with bottle milk coz takut susu tak cukup... hey.. I'm trying my best here to stockup as much as I can, okay... bagi le support.. ishhkk.. and I want to feed her nothing but my breastmilk... lagipun, every 3-4 days, I feed her with bottle milk jugak.. coz takut she refuses to take bottle milk langsung... anyhow, she never fails to drink from bottle.. dia nak aje...

Now I'm taking this milkmaid tea to increase my milk supply... sedap ooo... kalau letak ais ni mesti agi sedap... huhu.. bila nak abih 100 days nih... nak menom teh ais aaa....

And I'm trying to gather as much information as I can on bf... luckily I have Along and many friends who fully support exclusive bf.. So, most of the info I got from them... and from online reading materials..

Lya Qaisara

She's 41 days today... (hihi.. 3 ari lagi Mommy abis pantang... yey yey..) Few updates on her:

Dah pandai mintak bibik gendong... ishkk.. especially during the days... she'll sleep the most, 1 hour kalau letak atas tilam dia.. but kalau gendong.. berjam2.... or kena pangku je.. adehh... cemane eh? kalau letak, sure menjerit... huhu... any tips, anybody? Kena buai jugak le nih... I tried not to use buai.. but kalau dia buat perangai cemni... sapa larat gendong dia lama2... ish ish... Lya... Lya..

Responses if people agah dia... and pandai sebut "goo... goo"...

suke mengiring... especially when we remove her pillow....

melts my heart with her smiles ..... sejuk hati, ilang penat bile tengok dia senyum.....

Alemak.. blurr la pulak gambo nih... daddy... new camera please....? hehe

Budak bulat... berkat susu ibu... kekek....

Okay.. that's all for today... to all my blog readers (chewwah.. like I have so many...) bear with me.. coz I'm gonna update on my lil dotter as much as possible.. nak bagi daddy dia baca gak...

Me, I want a hoola hoop...

2008-01-21T12:07:00.000+09:00

lagu fevret Lya... keke... err... or is it her Mommy's...? hihi... enjoy yea... replace "Christmas" with "Raya"...... I wanted to see the movie.. but was still in this boring confinement period... ish ish....

(all right you Chipmunks! Ready to sing your song?
-I'll say we are!
-Yeah!
-Let's sing it now!
Okay, Simon?
-Okay!
Okay, Theodore?
-Okay!
Okay, Alvin? Alvin? ALVIN!
-OKAY!!!)

Christmas, Christmas time is near
Time for toys and time for cheer
We've been good, but we can't last
Hurry Christmas, hurry fast
Want a plane that loops the loop
Me, I want a hula hoop
We can hardly stand the wait
Please Christmas, don't be late.

Okay fellas get ready
That was very good, Simon.
-Naturally.
Very good Theodore.
-Ahhh.
Ah, Alvin, you were a little flat, watch it.
Ah, Alvin. Alvin. ALVIN!
-OKAY.

Want a plane that loops the loop
I still want a hula hoop
We can hardly stand the wait
Please Christmas, don't be late.
We can hardly stand the wait
Please Christmas, don't be late.

Very good, boys
-Lets sing it again! Yeah, lets sing it again!
No, That's enough, lets not overdo it
-What do you mean overdo it?
-We want to sing it again!
Now wait a minute, boys
-Why can't we sing it again?
-[chipmunk chatter]
Alvin, cut that out..Theodore, just a minute.
Simon will you cut that out? Boys...

Cian Lya......

2008-01-18T17:45:00.000+09:00

Today was the 4th time I went out during this confinement period.. hua hua... punye le boring eh... 1st time, me and hubby went to One Utama for shopping.... hahaa... ni la ropenye kalau dah mmg kaki shopping and kaki window shopping... keluar jugak eventhough masa dlm pantang... with bengkung and sox, okeh... that was, after kena bebel ngan MIL la jugak kan.. and I didnt even tell my mom that I went out for shopping... hehe.. ye laa..at that time hubby dah nak balik Japan.. bile lagi nak gi spend time kuar ngan dia...

The 2nd time, we went to Kelana Seafood.. since my SIL wanted to belanje the whole family.. so, we brought Lya along.... at that time she was only 3 weeks old.. hehe...

Then, we hangkut Lya pegi airport jugak... to send her Daddy off to Japan... hehe.. kecik2 dah gi KLIA...

Then today.. brought Lya to see paed, Dr Fadzillah at DEMC... and my post natal checkup.. time flies soo fast.. I didnt realize that one month has passed and the last time I went to DEMC was when I gave birth to Lya.. huhu.. rasa sakit tu pun still I can remember..

Anyhow... doctor said, Lya sehat... Alhamdulillah... her weight increased to 4.4kg now... ahak.. dah berat anak Mommy... masa checkup ngan doctor, she was like an angel.. baik je bile doctor check dia.. (surprisingly.. hehe.. ) but masa injection, dia menjerit (with very high pitch voice woo... huhu...) tapi kejap aje.. 2-3 saat centu..then dia senyap.. Good girl, Lya...

Ni muke suspense b4 amik injection....

Lya kena cocok.. Sakit ckit je.. cam kena gigit semut...

Happy One Month Old, Lya...

2008-01-17T17:47:00.001+09:00

It's been more than one week since I last blog.. and it has been more than one week jugak le, Daddy Lya went back to Japan... oh well...

Yesterday was baby Lya's one month birthday.. Happy birthday sweet Lya... hehe.. She has been Mommy's good girl.. knowing that her Daddy no longer here.. huhu...

Nothing much to update, actually... still going thru the same tiring routine of this confinement period... Counting the days till merdeka day.. no more bengkung2, param, pilis, socks... Ghee.. cant wait.. 11 more days to go...*sigh*

Hi Daddy... Lya dah besar woo...

Hua hua.. miss ya, Daddy...

Happy Birthday to me...

2008-01-07T13:48:00.000+09:00

Huhu last Saturday was my 30th birthday.... mak aii.. pangkal dah tukar jadik 3.... iskk.. anyhow.. this year's birthday was the most meaningful since I felt that my life dah complete... with dear hubby.. and si kecik Lya... hehe...

Thanx dear for the wonderful gift.....

Lusa Deboo dah balik Japan... :((

Gonna miss u a lotttt....... :(( Takpe lah.. ade rezeki, Mommy and Lya nnt gi visit Daddy kat Japan, okeh...

Takde mood pun nak blogging dah....

Happy New Year 2008....

2008-01-03T12:00:00.000+09:00

It has been 19 days since I safely delivered Lya Qaisara... and she has been mommy's and daddy's good girl... Here's some updates....

Lya Qaisara

Now, Lya dah pandai nak borak2... every morning, after taking her bath.. she'll refuse to sleep.. she could stay awake until 1:00 to 2:00pm.. bukak mata besar2, asking everybody to layan her beborak.... if left alone.. meaning takde org layan, she'll cry...

Anak Mommy tgh sedap tidoo....

Majlis kenduri akikah and cukur jambul Lya were held on 1st Jan 2008... Alhamdulillah, evrything went well... and sepanjang majlis cukur tu, Lya tido aje... hehe... sebaik tak melalak masa tu..

Happy faces.... Lya Qaisara with her beloved Daddy, Mommy.. Opah and Nenek.... Kat blakang tu auntie Apin interprem...

Penuh bunga rampai atas badan dia.. huhu.....

Breastfeed

Lya kuat sgt menom susu... it'll take about 1/2 hr to 1 hr to bf her at one particular time.. sometimes, tak cukup jugak.. and I hav to top up with bottle milk.. sian dia lapar... Maybe I should take supplement to increase my breast milk... now, dah start perah susu to stock up kat dlm fridge... skarang ni, sekali perah, dapat la 4 oz.. still tak byk.. guess bf isnt as easy as it looks.. took a lot of hard work... luckily I hav Along who exclusively bf her children, though she's working.... byk tanye along aje tips2 on bf..

Confinement

I'm starting to get really really really bored with the confinement period.... dah la makanan tak de byk choice... let say, tghari tu mkn ikan pindang... sampai ke malam laa masak pindang tuh... adeh... kalau hari2 centu, sapa tak boring... I dont mind makan rebus2 nih.. tak mkn menda2 goreng and minyak2 tu takpe.. but the same things for 44 days??.. adehh.....

plus i hav to wear the bengkung every day and night (punye la susah nak begerak lepas pakai bengkung..) plus param and pilis sume (bau sket punye tak best...) plus socks 24 hrs a day (makes my feet itchy, ok......) Jalan Laju2 tak boleh.. turun tangga pun tak bleh.... tido pun kena stret mcm kayu... abih tu, bleh jadik gile gak cemnih.. cepat2 laa abih pantang....

12th day....

2007-12-27T13:14:00.000+09:00

Today is supposed to be Lya Qaisara's due date... huhu.. tapi dia dah 12 hari keluar..... alhamdulillah, everything went well. although being a mommy is a very challenging task, tapi Lya budak baik... tak meragam... She'll just cry when she's hungry.. and goes back to sleep when she's full...

The first week was quite tough... since I was still weak.. with the pain from the stitches.. ( 7 stitches tau..! iskk.... sakitt... ) and Lya still didnt know how to properly latch on my breast... Or I am the one who do not know how to breastfeed her... end up, my breast swollen.. Sakit gile...! even sentuh pun sakit... Not to mention pusing kiri kanan masa tido, pun sakit gile.. coz, susu byk, but they just couldnt come out... huhu.... Last2 kena bagi susu botol.... with hubby jadik tukang bancuh susu malam2....

Luckily the 3rd day, midwives from DEMC came to see the me and the baby.... so, Kak Seri tolong urut... and tuam... and managed to squeeze 1 Oz of milk out of my breast.... lega sket aje.. sakit nye masa dia massage, tuhan aje yg tau.... until I cried..! huhu... but she adviced to continuously massage and tuam, whenever I felt my breast full with milk.. and I did...

Today, it has been 4 days I managed to breastfeed Lya fully.. (yeayy....!!)

Ni muka lambat bagi susu...

Ni muka baru lepas mandi.. gggg.....

The arrival of Lya Qaisara....

2007-12-20T17:46:00.000+09:00

It has been more than 1 week since I last blogged... So bz, okeh... Bz with year end shopping spree for all da baby stuffs...

And finally.. 16 December 2006.. I have safely delivered our lil princess... exactly one year after our marriage.. hehe.. dia nak jugak keluar time our very 1st anniversary... Anyhow... here's the chronology... hehe..

16 December 2007

6:15 a.m- First contraction... Ghee.. I didnt even know that it was the contraction pain.. sakit sikit2 aje... macam period pain tu....

7:00 a.m - another contraction..

7:30 a.m - and another... and they became closer until it was 15 minutes apart between 2 contractions...

8:00 a.m - Went downstairs for breakfast.. and told MIL that I'm feelin quite uncomfortable with "period pain" every 15 minutes.... sempat la makan mee goreng and karipap sikit...

9:00 a.m - Hubby kata, jom aje lah gi DEMC.. in case it's time..

10:00 a.m - Arrive DEMC... waited for the nurse and doctors punye la lama.. since they are attending another patient who was at that time "screaming" in the labour room... ishkk.. really scares me off, okeh...

about 10:30 a.m - Doctor attended me.. and said that I've already 3 cm dilated.. (erk... really? thot of going for final shopping at One Utama tadi.. kalau takde ape2... haha... tak sempat dah...)

11:00 a.m - Transferred the labour room.... and the nurse broke my water bag... huk.. panas je air keluar....and the struggling began... the duration between 2 contractions became closer, and the pain became stronger... sakit sangat... sempat nurse tanye.. nak epidural tak... err... I think I can handle the pain, okeh... but it was far far worse than I ever thought it could be.... and I never wanted hubby to let go off my hand.. not even one second... sian dia... nak pegi pee pun I didnt let him go...

1:00 p.m - already 9cm dilated... the contractions getting stronger... sakit sangat, okeh.. huk. tak penah rasa sakit cemni... I dont think I can go thru without hubby beside me.... Thank you soooo much dear for being there.... and sorry for marah2 masa sakit.. and squeezing your hand soooo hard masa tahan sakit contraction...

1:15 p.m - Lya Qaisara finally delivered... weighed 3.1kg... exactly masa azan zohor from masjid shah alam berkumandang... Alhamdulillah....

Lya Qaisara ... few minutes after delivered... sejuk sangat dia...

Us... just b4 going home from DEMC.. daddy with his new specs.. hehe.. and mommy with the tired look.. huhu... penat gile..

Lya Qaisara - 4 days old.. hihi... sedap je dia tido...

36 weeks....

2007-12-04T21:18:00.001+09:00

Had another checkup today @ DEMC... Baby already grew to 3kg..! Anyhow, doctor said that her position now is face-up or "mendongak", or in medical term, it is called "Occiput Posterior".... not a very good position for easy labour.... but the doctor did advice not to worry, becoz she can still rotate.... but frankly speaking, I'm still worried... isk... even normal labour scares me off.. ni kan pulak position pelik2 cemni.... no wonder I felt that the shape of my belly a lil bit "weird" these few days....

Nway, did some reasearch on it, and tried to better understand it, and found out that normal labour can still happen.. and the doctor was right.... baby CAN still rotate maybe during labour, or earlier... see what happens on next week checkup... just pray for me that everything will go smoothly.... hopefully............

36 weeks... she's already 3.1kg...!

Anyways, went to Plaza Masalam after the checkup to meet Ina.... she wanted to passed her wedding invitation... but I really regret that I might not make it coz the timing is too close to my due date... .... (dah la dia jadik my pengapit masa my wedding dulu ... isk.. rasa guilty sgt...) Nhow.. I do hope that she'll have a wonderful nikah ceremony and kenduri... and wish her a beautiful life ahead...

Afer that, pergi survey baby cot/playpen and cot bedding for the baby... end up, terbeli bedding set for the mommy pulak... kekeke.... but they were sooo sweet.. ada flower2.. keke.. (Dear hubby mesti tak suke.. sbb bunga2.. haha.. ) I just cant resist when it comes to home deco or bedding set... Sorry, baby.. we'll shop till drop for your stuffs when daddy's back, okeh...

Mommy's new comforter set...! keke...

9 months..

2007-12-02T19:14:00.000+09:00

Me with my 9 months belly.... :))

Letter to my lil princess..

2007-12-01T01:11:00.000+09:00

Gambar sekadar hiasan.. hehe

My dearest baby..

This morning i felt you gracefully move again.. and you made Mommy smile.. like u always do... I just want you to know that I enjoyed every single second of your movement and just wished that your daddy is here to touch and feel you... I know you miss him a lot.. coz I miss him too....
This evening when daddy told mommy he's gonna come back a lil bit late, I tried not to cry.. but tonite, I cant stop cryin... :(
But pls dont tell daddy I cried...

Mommy and Daddy just cant wait to see you... and I know that we're gonna have so much fun together... coz you're the perfect gift ever..

Love you always,
Mommy

Durian...

2007-11-28T22:59:00.000+09:00

Since I came back from Japan, I've been craving for durian, but since now is not durian season, carik kat mana2 pun tak dapat... but just now, at pasar malam here, at last, jumpe la jugak.... after about 3 weeks baru dapat..! I ate, but not too much coz takut my fever and cough come back.. (huhu... tak sanggup....) So sedap okeh, but its not the same as when i enjoyed a 3000 yen durian when I was back in Nagasaki.... The sweetest memory ever..! dapat makan durian nearly rm100 sebijik @ Japan with dear hubby... masa makan kat sini, sayu je rasa... bile teringat.. @ dis hour he's still @ kapal... makan ke.. tak makan ke...

This few days, baby tendang kuat sangat... mebi dia pun miss her daddy too much.. dulu dia slalu dengar suara daddy as he always talks to my belly... iskk... cepat le balik.. :((

1st gift...

2007-11-28T15:50:00.000+09:00

Got this first gift from my sis in law for my little princess... comei... A baby blanket from Guess and baju with lil booties and bib from oshkosh... comei2...

Hihi...

2007-11-23T12:02:00.000+09:00

Bought this cute lil dress for my baby last week... after checkup at DEMC, pegi sbelah tu ade Anakku shop... Well guess dis is the 1st time beli yg "girlie-girlie" punye baju... yg lain beli natural colour je.. coz i dun really like sume baju pink kare je sume... pening tengok... but this newborn baby girl baju ni comei sgt... hehe.. "kena" beli jugak...

Boney & Waty's Wedding

2007-11-18T11:58:00.000+09:00

Went to Boney & Waty's wedding @ Kg Pengantin Jalan Ampang last week... though I was not that well.. dragged my feet to drive to KL and went there with Ati & Nazrol with si tecik.. Qistina... Owner of Spa Q la kononnye.. haha..

The atmosphere was nice.. the deco was superb..! (iskk.. rasa nak curik je fresh flowers tu..) and the bride & groom look sooo happy.... Nway.. glad i made it there.. Hoping that u both will have a sweet & wonderful life ahead... haha.. adiah tak beli lagi laa.. tak sempat....

Unwell... still

2007-11-16T23:04:00.000+09:00

it has been more than one week I'm back here in Malaysia.. and the weather doesnt seem to suit me at all... last night I managed to get only a couple of hours asleep.. i had this fever... again... and my whole body was aching... not to mention my back was in pain... plus I had to get up every hour to empty my bladder... everytime i had to get up, requires extra effort... it was the longest night i ever had.. and every hour when i woke up.. i was like.."laaaaa... bila nak siang nih...?" i just cant get myself comfortable ~ at all... the extra portable fan that i used (hala direct to me - with full speed) doesnt seem to help bring my body temperature down.... isk...

Hopefully, esok sihat balik... i just cant stand just lying on bed all day long... the moment I'm writing this entry, the baby inside was kicking. maybe dia pun rasa panas kot.. since mommy dia demam.. well at least she's moving, and everytime i felt her movement, i was relieved - the only thing that lits up my day and makes me smile alhtough i'm not well... .... as long as she's healthy inside me...

Counting the days till dear Deboo comes back here in Malaysia... Everything seems much much easier to go thru if u r around... :(

33 weeks...

2007-11-14T12:45:00.000+09:00

This week is my 33rd week of my pregnancy.. So far, everything went smoothly.. Yesterday, went for checkup here @ demc.. in Shah Alam... 1st time checkup kat Malaysia... Alhamdullillah... everything looks okay... although I'm having flu, cough and fever, my baby inside doesnt seem to stop kicking and "siku ing"...

Baby dah 2.2kg...and few things I realized during this 33rd week :

~ fatigue - I easily get tired... (kejap2 nak duduk....)and solat is getting difficult to perform - sometimes I just perform solat with only sitting position... the frequent sitting, and standing gives physical strain especially on my lower back and knees...

~ restless nights - with frequent pee breaks.. (issk.. 4-5 kali bangun tu...) and turning, and tossing while trying to get the most comfortable position to get my sleep...

~ swollen feet and hands when I stand or sit too long...

~ Out of breath if I eat too much at one particular time... Kalau makan byk2 skali, alamatnye, tak senang duduk, bediri pun tak kena.. baring lagi laa tak kena.. so, i normally eat small amount of meal at one time, but frequently.. isk... baru laa tak mengah2...

~ easily sweat - and I do sweat a lot.. especially here in Malaysia.. gee. how I miss Japan weather.. Malaysia panas gilee....!! gile pun tak panas cemni....

Here's the scaned image while I was in 31st and 33rd week of pregnancy...

Home from Home

2007-11-14T12:22:00.000+09:00

It has been 1 week since I arrived here, back in Malaysia... Home.. away from my home in Nagasaki...

Gee.. I didnt know that I miss our little apartment in Nagasaki until I arrived here... I really do! Miss everything that I left there.. including my anak2 ikan.. not to mention "Deboo..." hehe... Really hope that I'll be there again someday.. haha.. tu pun if dear hubby tak kena anta balik ke sini lah....

Journey from Nagasaki to Kuala Lumpur was exhausting.. Nway, everything went well... though there were hiccups here and there while at the airport..(excess baggage punye pasal laa nih...)I managed to get all the assistance that I can get from Kansai Airport and KLIA... with my big belly, (berat lak tu...) all the luggage carried by ground assistance at the airport... hehe.. sebaik laaa.. kalau tak, sakit2 pinggang gak angkat beg... sampai gi shopping for perfume at the airport pun assistance tu ikut.... the MAS steward siap tanye.. "Puan nak pakai wheelchair tak...?" err... do I really look that helpless sampai berjalan pun tak larat? ishh... takyah le... bukan takleh jalan...

3 days after I arrived, we had open house here in Saujana Utama on the last day of Syawal... tiring...! penat gile sampai demam2 nih.. til today, I'm still having this flu, cough, and fever.... complete package.. anyway.. thanx to all my frens who made it ~ Ajaie , Izani & Kamila, Ati & Nazrol with their sweet Qistina.. Dodi and Damia the Menace with little Danish, and my family... mama, babah, along family and angah...

Mount Aso...

2007-11-02T09:17:00.000+09:00

One place that i really wanted to go before I go back to Malaysia is here... Looking at the view of the largest active volcano in Japan is one of the list of things that I longed for while I was here... Ingatkan dah tak sempat pegi dah.. but last week, dear hubby ajak la jugak.. (Yeay...!!) Thank you dear... though it was his 2nd trip to Mount Aso. tapi coz I've never been there, dia kena la jugak bawak.. hihi...

After nearly 3 hours journey... (including naik ferry) to Kumamoto... we finally reached there... although the Gas Regulations forbid us to go to the top to see the crater (isskkk...), I enjoyed the beautiful view, anyway... and the cool breeze of angin gunung.. hehe.... to sum up.. here are the photos....

Counting the days....

2007-10-24T17:22:00.000+09:00

14 more days to go before I leave Japan... huhu.. the thought bout it just stressed me out.. and I'm in no mood at all to cook, or buat kuih.. or kemas rumah.. or anything that I used to love doing, before... but have too lah kan.. if not, just laying on the couch will make me more depress or sakit belakang...

It's just like there's nothing that I look forward to do in KL anymore.. I actually hate emotional posts like this but I really do have to let it out somewhere or it will bottle up in me.. guess pregnant lady memang emotional kot.. huhu..

ok2.. let's list out what can cheer me up when I'm in KL again nanti.. :

1. Shopping for baby's stuff... tak sabar nak buat ni.... although I really dont know what to buy.. keke..guess I have to make the shopping list la skarang...
2. Jumpe anak2 buah... whom I missed so much.. especially the 2 youngest ones... Jema - the one yg tak benti2 membebel macam mak nenek unless something spoilt her mood.. and Ajik.. the cutest little creature.. he was 9 months old when I left for Japan.. skang dah besar la kot...
3. Kenduri Boney.. I really look forward of his kenduri with Waty.. hehe.. Really hope that he'll have a beautiful life with waty after all that he went thru... jalan idup macam industan daaa....)
4. Waiting for dear hubby to come back after the 2nd vessel delivery.. hmm.. dekat sebulan gak after I reach KL tuu...
5. Finally - to have the first look of our baby.. although the thought of "bersalin" really scares me off.. iskk.. takut wooo...Guess this is what every mother-to-be felt before going thru the delivery.. but hopefully everything will go really2 well... 3 things I wish for at the end of my prayer everyday :

- A cute little baby - sempurna sifat.. great health.. Soleh/Solehah with melodious voice to recite Quran & hadis....
- Strength for me to go through whatever a woman supposed to experience throughout pregnancy... and during labor and delivery of the baby...
- And... Guidance for us to be good parents after the baby is borned...

Amin..

Selamat Ari Raye....

2007-10-16T21:09:00.000+09:00

Hari ni dah 4 Syawal... kejap je dah abih posa. Tak penah2 dapat posa penuh, alhamdulillah.. dis year aku posa penuh wooo...even though there're times that i felt sooo lembik.. tak larat nak posa... but sayang nak bebuke.. berjaye jugak le posa penuh..

First time raya posa kat Nagasaki.. tak terasa sgt pun raye.. since masa bulan posa, every week ada makan2.... so considered this was another makan2 aje... menu pun lebih kurang sama jek ngan masa bebuke bulan posa. ade nasik tomato.. nasi beriani daging... laksa.. nasi impit.. kuah kacang... ketupat pulut... rendang.. pulut kuning.. bihun goreng.. roti jala.. plus kuih2 raya and kerepek import dari mesia...

Pagi, cam biase pegi smayang raye kat ngan unibesiti.. schedule 7:30 stat smayang (mak aii.. punye le awall.. org kat mesia pun tak bangun lagik...) sampai2 dah 7:35 rerupenye diorg dah abih smayang.... adehh.. memang punctual mak datok.. ikut time jepun betul... at last, kitorg org2 mesia nih smayang sendiri lepas abih khutbah... Pastu pegi beraye umah en jun.... Malam lak, si haris and azuan dtg dpd ariake beraye.. so, masak le sket2 utk diorg... makan lagii... xtvt makan je ari nih...

2nd Syawal.. dah tak rasa raye dah... since dear hubby dah gi keja dah pun.. (iskk.. ari ahad pun keja).. 3rd Syawal.. lagi laa.. dia dah gi naik kapal... hmm.. lagi laa tak rasa raye.. bezanye aku spend the whole day tgk tv citer2 raye.. hehe.. kalau balik kampung tak dapek dok depan tv nih.. mesti kena bejalan raya.. paling tak pun, jiran2 keliling rumah.... kes kena paksa ngan mama le nih...

Anyhow.. raya kali ni cukup sederhana jek... 1st time beraya berdua.. seronot aje... bezanye takde isu balik kampung mana.. keke.. kena raye kat jepun... bab mintak maaf ngan hubby je tak pass lagik.. isk.. camno nih...isk.. tak reti weh..

so, to all.... slamat ari raye yek.. maaf zahir batin..

Bebuke posa...

2007-10-01T13:06:00.000+09:00

Kejap je rasa dah 18 ramadhan ari ni.... last Saturday turn kat umah aku buat majlis bebuke... adeh.. dekat patah pinggang gak masak... nasik putih, ayam masak lemak, kerabu togeh ngan kerang.. nasik impit ngan kuah kacang, mee kari, kuih serimuka.. jiran kat atas, si azy tolong masak ikan sweet sour ngan sotong goreng...

sebaik dear hubby jadik assistant chef... takde la penat sgt.. tapi the day after tu tido jugak la satu hari.. penat mengemas... but all in all, everything went alrite...byk kuih2 member2 bawak... mcm biase kalau jadik tuan rumah, mesti tak lalu makan, menda2 yg dimasak sendiri... ringan la sket perut.. hehe

tak sampai 2 minggu lagi nak raya dah... kalau pasang radio sume dah stat main lagu raya dah... baru ade mood buat kuih... ari ni jek aku berjaya buat peyek ikan bilis ngan quaker oat.. hehe.. bukan ade sapa nak dtg beraya pun.. tapi syok utk makan sendiri jek... esok nak masak kuih ape ek?

26 weeks

2007-09-19T09:31:00.000+09:00

This week dah masuk 26th week my pregnancy... Well, my belly already grew big.. (of course la kan.. kalau kecik jugak, lagi la tak normal..) and I really look like a pregnant lady now.... cant hide my belly dah..

I guess my babymoon phase is going to end.. and while I'm going into this 3rd trimester stage of pregnancy these are a few things I noticed:

I can't get comfortable - any position makes me feel uncomfortable.. baring lama2 tak boleh.. duduk lama2 pun penat... berdiri lama2, lagi laaa... getting asleep at night is quite difficult, with this big belly.. hehe.. kejap pusing kiri.. kejap pusing kanan.. plus my baby inside seems cant stop moving especially when I'm trying to sleep..
My bladder is under pressure - again... dulu masa 1st trimester slalu pegi toilet.. now, it's coming back again.. skarang lagi la penat, especially if tgh baring, tetibe rasa nak gi toilet.. adehh.. everytime I need to get up daripada baring, nak berdiri, requires extra effort..
Backache - Deboo kata, I really look like orang pregnant skarang.. since I always walk with my hand pegang pinggang.. sakit laaa.. my extra 6kg now really puts pressure on my back... patut la org pregnant selalu pegang2 pinggang time berjalan.. baru la tau rasa dia..

Last Saturday, we went for checkup again. Ni gambar scan masa 25 weeks... everything seems okay.. Alhamdulillah.. best tgk visual scan.. but now it's getting difficult to identify which one is her feet, which are her hands.. becoz she's already grew big. nearly 1kg berat dia.. so bile tgk scan, kena tanye doktor, barula paham... yg ni ape, yg tu ape.. macam biase everytime scan, baby bukak2 mulut.. maybe tgh minum kot... from this photo dah boleh nampak features kat muka dia... nampak mata (dia tgh tutup mata), nampak idung, mulut..

Pasir putih tepi pantai.. ombak saling berkejaran.. kuang kuang..

2007-09-13T08:28:00.001+09:00

Ari nih 1st day posa tapi ari ni bukan nak citer pasal posa.. ni xtvt yg kitorg buat sbelum sampainye bulan ramadhan.. hobi, asik gi mandi laut jek..3-4 kali jugak lah kitorg pegi bejalan ke pantai sini.. Yg lainnye pantai kat sini, tak semeriah pantai kat Malaysia.. walaupun sini lautnye bersih, tapi tak sama atmospherenye dgn pantai kat mesia.. sini, kalau n ak makan, terpaksa la bawak bekal siap2 dari rumah.. kat mesia ade je org jual2 mee udang ke.. rojak ke.. air ke.. ais krim ke.. kat tepi pantai.. sini.. huhu. langsung tadak.. yg ade vending machine aje... cukup tak meriah.. pantai pun lengang aje.. tahla.. org jepun tak suke mandi laut kot.. tapi tak kisah la kan.. yg penting dapat berendam.. air pun sejuk je.. plus takde gatal2 badan kena air masin sini.. Ni antara pantai yg sempat kitorg angkut fotografer roslan tuh.. hehee.. kitorg jadik model2 je...

Ramadhan..

2007-09-12T08:35:00.000+09:00

Esok 1 Ramadhan 1428... Ni 3rd time aku sambut 1st day posa kat jepun nih tapi raya tak penah lagik sini.. tapi, insya allah tahun ni aku akan beraya kat bumi Nagasaki nih for for the 1st time.. huhu.. raya haji dah selalu dah kat negara orang.. tapi raya posa, ni la 1st time aku tak balik Tepeng....

dulu masa zaman bujang, kul 4 ptg dah cabut.. company bagi balik awal.. sempat le masak simple2 @ paling tak, melilau carik makanan kat pasar ramadhan.. masa dok rumah along, sempat jugak aku hangkut anak2 buah kat pasar ramadhan.. seronot layan selera diorg makan nih... especially yg baru 1st year or 2nd year posa.. yg tak posa pun aku angkut gak bersoping kat pasar ramadhan.... kat sini.. dah takde le ptg2 nak gi bersoping kat pasar ramadhan.. tahun nih, sume kena buat sendirik.. menu2 wajib bulan posa - ayam percik, murtabak, ikan bakar ngan kuah asam, cencaru sumbat belakang, soto, roti jala, buah melaka... huhu.. air soya, air bandung. sirap selasih.. isskk air tebu.. (fevret nih tebu nih.. yg ni je payah nak dapat kat sini nih...) Insya Alah..dis year, aku dah bleh buat sendiri dah sume tuh.. (isk... except air tebu... ) kalau kat mesia, tak kuasa le nak buat.. baik beli kat pasar ramadhan jek.. (walaupun rega melampau2..) tapi sini. insya allah, tiap2 minggu ade open house.. hehe.. blum raya dah ade open house tuu... siap kena booking minggu bila nak buat open house.. huhu.. penuh schedule, sbb sume nak buat time weekend.. ni untung dok negara org... jemput sume org mesia yg dok nagasaki...

So, to all.. selamat menyambut posa.. yg bleh posa penuh tuh, bawak2 le posa penuh2.. tahun ni aku bleh posa penuh kot... (hehe... larat ke..) Selamat berterawih.. selamat bermoreh... sempena bulan mulia nih.. meh la kite memperbanyakkan amal.. improvekan solat.. and kumpul pahala byk2.. sbb kite tak tau kan.. ramadhan tahun depan, kompem ke kite ade lagi utk menyambutnye..

Doa..

2007-09-05T15:13:00.000+09:00

Someone sent me forwarded email of this doa.. Blessed the person who cares to share it with me and all her frens.. Love it... I hav to save it somewhere.. so here it is, for all wives, or wives to be.. here's something beautiful to end your prayers everyday....

Doa seorang isteri

Ya Allah Ya Rahman Ya Rahim
Kau ampunilah dosaku yg telah ku perbuat
Kau limpahkanlah aku dgn kesabaran yg tiada terbatas
Kau berikanlah aku kekuatan mental dan fizikal
Kau kurniakanlah aku dgn sifat keredhaanKau peliharalah lidahku dari kata-kata nista
Kau kuatkanlah semangatku menempuhi segala cabaranMu
Kau berikanlah aku sifat kasih sesama insan

Ya Allah
Sekiranya suamiku ini adalah pilihan Mu diArash
Berilah aku kekuatan dan keyakinan untuk terus bersamanya
Sekiranya suamiku ini adalah suami yg membimbing tanganku dititianMu
Kurniakanlah aku sifat kasih dan redha atas segala perbuatanNya
Sekiranya suamiku ini adalah bidadara untukku di Jannah Mu
Limpahkanlah aku dgn sifat tunduk dan tawadduk akan segala perintahnya
Sekiranya suamiku ini adalah yg terbaik untukku di duniaMu
Peliharalah tingkah laku serta kata-kataku dari menyakiti perasaannya
Sekiranya suamiku ini jodoh yg dirahmati olehMuBerilah aku kesabaran untuk menghadapi segala kerenah dan ragamnya

Tetapi Ya Allah
Sekiranya suamiku ini ditakdirkan bukan untuk diriku seorang
Kau tunjukkanlah aku jalan yg terbaik untuk aku harungi segala dugaanMu
Sekiranya suamiku tergoda dengan keindahan duniaMu
Limpahkanlah aku kesabaran untuk terus membimbingnya
Sekiranya suamiku tunduk terhadap nafsu yg melalaikan
Kurniakanlah aku kekuatan untuk memperbetulkan keadaannya
Sekiranya suamiku mencintai kesesatan
kau pandulah aku untuk menarik dirinya keluar dari terus terlena

Ya Allah
Kau yg Maha Mengetahui apa yg terbaik untuk ku
kau juga yg Maha Mangampuni segala kesilapan dan keterlanjuranku
Sekiranya aku tersilap berbuat keputusan
Bimbinglah aku ke jalan yg Engkau redhai
Sekiranya aku lalai dlm tanggungjawabku sebagai isteri
Kau hukumlah aku di dunia tetapi bukan di akhiratMu
Sekiranya aku engkar dan derhaka
Berikanlah aku petunjuk kearah rahmatMu

Ya Allah
SesungguhnyaAku lemah tanpa petunjukMu
Aku buta tanpa bimbinganMu
Aku cacat tanpa hidayahMu
Aku hina tanpa hidayahMu

Ya Allah
Kuatkan hati dan semangatku
Tabahkan aku menghadapi segala cubaanMu
Jadikanlah aku isteri yg disenangi suami
Bukakanlah hatiku untuk menghayati agamaMu
Bimbinglah aku menjadi isteri solehah
Hanya padaMu Ya Allah ku pohon segala harapan
Kerana aku pasrah denagn dugaanMu
Kerana aku sedar hinanya aku
Kerana aku insan lemah yg kerap keliru
Kerana aku leka dgn keindahan duniaMu
Kerana kurang kesabaran ku menghadapi cabaranMu
Kerana pendek akalku mengharungi ujian MuYa Allah Ya Tuhanku...
Aku hanya ingin menjadi isteri yg dirahmati
Isteri yg dikasihi
Isteri yg solehah
Isteri yg sentiasa di hati
Kau bantulah hambaMu ini Ya Allah
Amin,amin Ya Rabbal Allamin....

Home Alone...

2007-09-05T09:56:00.000+09:00

I'm all alone again... since dear Deboo went to Trieste, Italy (betulke spelling nih..?) for about one week.. 3 more days to go... Gile boring dok rumah sensorang.. dah 3 ari aku tak masak nasik.. end up makan benjo ngan maggi goreng aje.. oh..and soto yg jiran kat atas bagi.. hehehe... biase.. time husband takde, jiran mesti bagi lauk or mknn since dia tau, dok sensorg malas masak.. vice versa.. kalau hubby dia takde, aku lak pass mknn kat dia..

Huhu.. rindu gile nak makan maggi goreng mamak... So, kena buat sendiri je.. ni yang boring mengidam kat sini..nak makan ape sume kena buat sendiri je...

Anyway..this week dah masuk 24th week my pregnancy.. kejap je rasa dah 6 months.. well, for the 1st 4 months memang rasa lama gile..(with the nausea and vomitting..) but when I became more energetic, rasa kejap pulak..btul le kan... time flies soo fast when we really enjoy it.. It's just that it's hard to get to sleep at night when you actually started dozing off, tetibe terkujat ada menda begerak dalam perut.. She just cant stop moving and kicking, that sometimes it gives me a tickling sensation.. geli2 gitu.. time orang nak tido tu la she started kicking left and right (I wonder how she can be at so many places at one time.. tgh kungfu kot...) that makes me change my positions every 5 minutes... Well I rather feel the kickings daripada scares me off bila dia tak begerak langsung like the other day...

Gotta go now.. have to force myself to clean the house.. haha dah 3 hari tak kemas rumah.. hihi...

Happy 50th Merdeka Day...

2007-08-30T09:07:00.000+09:00

Tomorrow is Malaysia's 50th Merdeka Celebration.. for us here, tak terasa sgt since jauh kan.. but we still watch Malaysian TV so, we know all the Merdeka advertisement shown kat tv... (love Petronas advert - the one which yg byk budak2 trying to figure out the name of their tiny country - KITA ).... cute!

...... and every morning I watched MHI @ TV3, so, I do know all the preparations and watched the rehearsal for the celebrations at Dataran Merdeka.. huhu.. cant imagine kalau kena drive pergi ofis at these times. sure jem gile since jalan2 tutup for Merdeka Celebration.. I remembered last year most of us arrived late kat ofis.. stucked in traffic jam for more than 1 hour... muka selamba je masuk ofis since ramai yg lambat gak..

Lat two years celebration I was in Japan, and that was the 1st time sambut Merdeka kat negara orang... buat bbq and @ 12:00 midnite we sang lagu Negaraku (not the Namewee version laah..).. suara mcm keluar tak keluar je nyanyi ramai2 with all Malaysian students and MI*C staffs since we didnt want to wake the Japanese up tgh2 malam buta tu....

This year.. takde ape2 plan pun.. hehe.. sebab hb tak cuti pun. but if I were in Malaysia, I;ll be kat kampung.. since all my other siblings balik kampung.. waaa.. waaa.. rasa nak balik je.. since mama ckp nak buat kenduri doa selamat sikit.. sure bising rumah ngan my anak2 buah.. windu rasa nak gaduh2 ngan diorg..

Anyhow.. Happy 50th Merdeka Day to all Malaysians....

22 minggu.....

2007-08-28T13:29:00.001+09:00

Minggu ni dah masuk 5 bulan stengah baby dalam perut nih.. and aku dah mula ada energy balik bila masuk 4 bulan dulu...

Best nye tak terkata when all the nausea and vomitting has faded away and my appetite has came back.. but I'm still sensitive to awful smells (at least pada aku, busuk laa..) like bau2 ikan kering.. or rempah2 kayu manis or bunga lawang.. (huh.. busuk gile..) but at least no more vomitting when I smell those things...

Skang dah bole rasa baby gerak2 and sepak terajang.. kalau pegi scan, bleh nampak dia bejoget2 dalam perut... and she is most active time aku nak tido ptg2 or malam2.. time tu lah dia dok bejoget dlm perut... tapi smalam.. nearly 1 hari aku tak rasa obvious movement dia.. panic gile.. pagi nih.. aku pasang ear phone kat perut, bagi dia dengar radio.. (keke.. bagi dengar hot fm tu...) dia tak gerak2 gak, aku bagi dia dengar yasin kat earphone.. dia tak gerak gak, then aku baring rilek2 and borak2 ngan dia baru baru lah dia start gerak... phew.. lega.... selalunye my dear deboo yg selalu borak2 ngan dia.. and aku rasa dia lagi familiar ngan suara deboo dpd suara aku.. since deboo selalu talk to my belly direct... hehe..

So, kat bawah ni aku share gamba masa mula2 sekali scan.. masa umur dia baru 7 weeks.. masa panjang dia baru 15mm... still takde rupe baby..

and gambar scan dia masa 18 weeks.. masa ni dah clear dah nampak sifat2 dia.. kepala, tangan, kaki... and even masa scan, selain begerak2, aku dah nampak dia bukak mulut as if macam menguap.....

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2007-08-27T10:03:00.000+09:00

Hey. aku tak penah share wedding photo aku kat sini.. Ari ni, genap 8 bulan 11 hari aku aku jadik isteri orang.... Alhamdulillah.... kejap sgt rasa...still in honeymoon mood.. ape tak nye.. hobi kitorg still tengok wedding album... and kengkadang run balik cd masa hari nikah and kenduri dulu... and this week, genap 22 minggu aku pregnant... anyway.. kalau nak share sume gamba, mmg byk gile.. so, kat sini.. aku post gambar fevret aku...

Sempena entry nih.. ni fevret song that I would like to dedicate to dear Deboo.... Sedey aa lagu nih.. I always cried kalau dengar lagu nih.. nnt bila org takde kat japan dah, hope that everytime you listen to this song, it'll remind you of me.. hehe.. just klik you tube bawah ni haa kalau nak dengar ~ one of avril's live performance...

When You're Gone ~ Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

Chorus :
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

*Chorus*

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

*Chorus*

I just realized that....

2007-08-23T13:11:00.001+09:00

I dah lama tak borak ngan my father... I mean really borak2....

Well, maybe becoz Babah is not like Mama.. kalau borak ngan Mama ada je menda nak cakap... Borak pasal resepi lah... ngumpat2 Angah or Along or Rizal... Gosip artis pun termasuk dlm topik borak2 ngan Mama.. so, there's soo much for us to talk about.. but with Babah, it's like we only talk about important things aje.. pasal bil keta ke, bil rumah ke, schedule travel ke.. (in case I plan to go somewhere..) pasal weather kat japan ni ke... menda2 centu je, by which 5 minutes pun dah bleh abih...

Most of the time, when I call home, if in case Babah yg angkat, I'll just ask him "Tgh buat ape.?" Then dia jawab, but then dia akan tanye balik "Nak ckp ngan mama ke...?" and straight away pass the phone to Mama... Gee... Since when jadik cemni eh? Anyhow, here are few things bout my father that I would like to share...

Babah suka masak lemak... especially masak lemak cili api ayam.. and ubi kentang.. (part ubi kentang ni aku rasa dah turun kat aku.. I just Love ubi kentang.. tak kira laa.. dlm masak lemak ke.. or stakat tumis ngan ikan bilis ke... or harsh potato.. or fun fries.. or mashed potato.. or ubi kentang letak dalam sup ayam.. sume2 lah...) In case there's only one ubi kentang left dalam mangkuk lauk, both of us will brerebut nak abihkan...

Babah suka tengok berita and baca paper... in short, dia memang updated pasal general knowledge and berita terkini... I remembered kalau masa kecik.. even until now.. when he's watching berita, I will ask him this and that. becoz my general knowledge is very2 hampeh... So, while watching berita, I will ask him " Apsal diorang perang, Bah?" or "***** tu ape, Bah?" (in case i dont understand any economical term..) or "Ni sapa, Bah?" (in case I dont recognize Menteri2 kat Mesia ni..) and normally he'll be able to answer my questions.. dulu dia suka tengok berita RTM.. but I normally bising coz presentation berta RTM tak menarik.. prop tak lawa, pembaca berita pakai baju tak cun.. so now he turned to berita TV3.. hehe...

Babah suka komputer and internet... I remembered when I was in Form 1 (i think) he's the one who introduced to me how to use email... I remembered the first question I asked

Me : Cemane kita nak tau kita dapat email?
Babah : Cemana kita tau kalau kita dapat surat? Surat yg posmen hantar selalu tu? (Babah selalu answer a question with a question to make me think...)
Me : kita cek peti surat la...
Babah : Haa.. sama laa... kita cek la inbox kat email.....
Me : Woooo....... (terlopong kejap...)

And that's how I was introduced to the so called email....

Kalau makan kat kedai, Babah selalu simpan air yg dia oder sampai dia makan abis... normaly air kan sampai dulu, so as for me and mama, makanan belum sampai, air dah tinggal separuh.... then tgh makan, air dah abih.. then we all mintak air babah... hehe... That's one proof that Babah tu penyabar... dia bleh tunggu sampai makanan dia sampai, then simpan air sedap tu sampai dia abih makan...

Babah drives very slow... slow sangat.. even kat hiway pun kengkadang dia drive 80km/jam aje... adehh.. if I was sitting beside him, (same goes with Mama) we will membebel, apesal slow sangatt?? Laju la sket... or tekan la minyak sket, Bah.... bukan ada kereta kat depan.. I guess that's the main reason that he never involved in any accident... He's really patience.. (Langsung tak samo cam aku... huk huk..)

Masa muda2 Babah suka naik gunung... I guess I'm the only child yg ikut jejak dia.. my other sibblings tak suka pun pegi jungle trekking or mountain climbing... that's why when I was studying, then I asked for belanja nak gi naik gunung, he never failed to give me... although Mama bising la jugak.. " Buat hape laa gi panjat2 gunung tuh..." but Babah never membebel or discourage me... He'll just ask questions like brape org pegi.. gunung tu kat mana.. pegi ngan ape... brape hari.. al the soalan wajib yg dia kena tanye as a father lah... and kengkadang bagi pesanan2 keramat... I remembered when I went to Tahan, he said "Nnnt time turun jangan lari... nanti muscle koyak..." ( it's true.. masa turun gunung tahan we tend to lari la jugak.. since ada tempat yg clear and macam turun bukit...)

Babah suka minum air bandung... kalau bulan posa, dia selalu bancuh air bandung dia sendiri... tetiba je time berbuka, dia bawak keluar air bandung dalam peti ais... air bandung dia bancuh best.....

Lagi satu Babah suka makan - jagung kacau.... ala. macam puding jagung tu.. but takde letak2 tepung... just jagung kacau ngan santan and gula letak daun pandan sket... (resepi traditional takde tepung or custard tau...) Sometimes mama bising coz dia tak rajin nak duduk tepi periuk and kacau jagung tu sampai pekat.. (takes quite a long time kalau nak bagi jagung tu sedap.. api slow, kena kacau sentiasa..) So, babah buat sendiri.. dia beli jagung sendiri, and dia kacau sendiri.. tak payah mama or aku nak tolong dia... tapi bila dah siap, kitorg la jadik tukang sibuk nak makan.... sedap oo...

Normally, sume baby suka kat Babah.. especially cucu2 dia.. kan some baby takes time nak kat orang... but kalau ngan Babah, kejap je, baby dah gelak2 ngan dia.. I duno why.. sometimes mama bengang jek.. coz cucu slalu nak ngan atuk... bukan ngan opah... penat mama umpan ngan gula2 la.. buah laa.. but ngan mama lambat sket baby nak warmup... kitorang slalu cakap muka babah macam clown kot.. muka pak lawak.. that's y baby suka... dari jauh kalau tengok muka babah, baby dah senyum2... Babah tak buat ape pun lagi... Dah 4 cucu babah centu.. sama jek sume... kalau baby tu dah pandai panjat2, dia suka panjat2 atas babah since perut babah mcm dunloppillow...

This list can go on and on.... nnt if aku teringat lagi menda lain pasal Babah yg aku rasa nak share, nanti aku share... maybe entry lain I'll talk about Mama pulak...

Macam2 ada...

2007-08-18T08:37:00.000+09:00

Obong Celebration

last weekend sampai ari rabu dulu cuti obong kat jepun nih... Celebration Obong nih org2 jepun buat utk sambut hantu2 family diorang yg balik le konon2nye... maka, penuh la kubur2 jepun kat sini macam pagi raya kite la jugak.. diorg pegi ziarah kubur family.. siap pasang2 mercun kat kubur tuh.. aku pun tak tau ape motifnye.. rasa macam raya cina pun ada gak.. pasang mercun style yg bunyik kuat gile tuh.. (adeh.. tekejut beruk kalau tgh tido woo...)

Jalan2 kat Jusco

Arituh kitorg gi jalan2 kat Jusco kat2 ngan Omura.. kira 30-45 minit dari umah.. Ekceli motifnye nak carik suar plus baju aku.. suma style dah tak muat.. isk... suar je mesti fail tang perut.. nak butang pun takleh dah.. hua.. Ye laa. dah masuk 5 bulan dah baby dalam perut nih.. kalau perut tak besar2 tak normal la pulak... Sekali jenjalan, teringat nak carik durian.. (iskk. Lama dah aku tringin makan durian woo....) Mama kata, kalau masa pregnant menda yg ngidam tak dapat, nnt baby meleleh jek air liur dia.. hihi.. betul ke? ntah le.. kepercayaan org tua.. ada la logik di sebaliknye tuh.. padahal aku tengok tv, time musim durian, selalu sangat tv mesia tuh tunjuk durian.. kalau tak pregnant punye pasal pun mesti terasa nak makan gak.. Sekali jalan2 kat jusco, Alhamdulillah.. jumpe durian.. rasa nak borong je sume.. aku rasa durian siam tuh.. punye la besar... dgn diameter dekat 1 kaki.. hehe.. tapi disebabkan rega dia nak sampai 3000 yen (convert duit mesia dekat rm100 jugak sebijik tuuu....) jadik terpaksa la beli satu je.. Tapi puas hati gile makan.. isi kucing tido.. hehe.. punye la tebal, sampai keras2 perut makan berdua ngan dear hubby. huhu.. kalau orang tanye ape pengalaman manis dalam hidup, aku akan jawab, dapat makan durian kat jepun.. huhu... best gilee...

Todoroki Waterfall

The next day cuti, kitorg gi waterfall.. lama sangat dah nak rasa masuk hutan balik plus nak dengar bunyik air terjun.. Windu sangat zaman naik gunung dulu... dapat gi todoroki pun kire ok.. ade 5-6 bijik keta rombongan kitorg gi.. including student kat sini.. dapat le ber bbq ngan meal2 lain prepared by wives kat sini.. ade nasik impit ngan kuah kacang, capati ngan kuah dal, bihun goreng, nasik goreng, makaroni goreng (ni aku la yg buat) mee goreng, siap ade murtabak tuu.... ni yg best kalau ade makan2 kat sini... mesti ade variety of food sampai tak larat2 nak makan..
Ni kire 3rd time aku sampai kat todoroki.. dulu pegi masa zaman bujang dulu la... kali nih pegi ade baby dalam perut. tapi best gile berendam dlm air yg sojukk gile.. (gile pun tak sejuk cemnih).. Kali ni pegi, dah tak amik gamba langsung dah... kire nak berendam je la motifnye...

Fukuoka

Balik waterfall, esoknye pegi fukuoka lak.. huish.. byk gile aktiviti cuti kali ni.. motif nak carik car seat baby.. dapek la jugak dgn rega yg murah since kat Babies'R'us tuh tinggal sebijik je carseat baby yg kitorg carik (yg display unit punye) so, murah dia 5000 yen.. hehe.. diskaun rm 150 tuu... hehe.. rezeki baby.. pas gi Merinoa city, stop kat tosu.. kalau ikutkan kaki ngan badan (yg dah berat nih) mmg penat... tapi disebabkan summer sale kat sume outlet yg kitorg pegi, ilang trus penat... sebaik la aku tak leh bershopping baju time nih disebabkan badan tak stable lagik.. hehe.. kalau tidak, mau tak cukup duit bawak...

Okeh.. stakat ni dulu citer kali nih.. nnt sambung lagik..

Jalan2 carik mickey mouse...

2007-08-04T08:27:00.000+09:00

Last week was a blast... 3 days trip to tokyo was sooo tiring... but fun..

1st day ok.. stamina byk lagi.. hehe.. just went to Akihabara the electrical and electronic city of Japan.. but actually.. the atmosphere is just like Low Yatt combined with Jalan Pasar.. Maybe a bit bigger la...

2nd day, we spent the whole day in Tokyo Disneyland from about 9:00am until 9:00 pm tuu.. adehh. punye la penat.. queue nak mengadap mickey mouse aje dah 1 hour.. pheww... this was my 2nd trip to TDL but the 1st for Fame.. TDL ni, kalau pergi sekali mmg tak abis pusing.. plus that day manusia was soooo ramai.. Summer holiday kan.. and the whether was soo hot.. they even have the summer splash event.. meaning byk show yg main sembur2 air... hehe.. best...

3rd day, dah pancit. so we just went to Roponggi... and had lunch at Hard Rock cafe Tokyo..

Overall... best, best.. thanx dear.. hehe.. next time kite gi USJ ehhh....

3 bulan 3 minggu..

2007-07-09T09:18:00.000+09:00

Dis week masuk 3 months and 3 weeks I'm pragnant!.. pheww... this few months was soooooo tiring... All the nausea and vomitting really made me totally exhausted and flat on couch most of the time... huhu.. I didnt think I will be this lembik.. iskk.. However, feeling a baby growing inside me is the most wonderful experience that I've ever felt.. of course, despite all the weird and exhausting feelings that I hav to go thru becoz of the body changes such as :

1. First 2 months, loya and muntah2 time bangun pagi.. ergghh.. skarang.. muntah ptg2 pulak.. nearly everyday, muntah aje.. everything I eat leaves horrible taste in my mouth.. Btull.... I never thot that I will be this weak!I alwiz thot that I'm a tough girl.. hahaha.. skarang baru tau.. All the experience naik gunung korbu 3 kali, tahan skali, yong belar skali.. ledang 2 kali, nuang lagi, bintang lagi.. and ntah gunung hape2 lagi tah.. the experience is nothing compared to skarang nih! huhu....

2. I'm becoming super sensitive to smells.... Nak kata anak mat salleh, bukan.... but all the smell of ikan kering, belacan, bau tumis2 bunga lawang and all the rempah gile busukk! I even can't smell nasik beras biase.. I mean, I hav to eat either beras wangi or beras basmathi! hahaha.. ngengada betul.. tapi nak buat cemane.. dah memang busukk!

3. I feel sleepy all the time.. especially petang2... macam kena pil tido. arghh... rasa nak tido spanjang masa... sebaik laa tgh cuti.. cant imagine kalau pegi ofis mcm ni... sah2 tido depan pc... Buat keja sket aje dah letih.. especially cooking! Cooking is the biggest challenge...! Bau busuk sikit aje, I'll be vomitting.. and that'll make me flat on bed.. exhausted...!! Isk. kalau kat malaysia ni, komfem, taknak masuk dapur.. but here, I HAVE to... bukan ade kedai nak beli nasik bungkus...

4. Emotional tak tentu pasal... iskk.. everything seems to irritate me.. well maybe becoz I'm not comfortable with my own body... which make me easily irritated all the time.. salah sikit, mesti nak marah... or I'll cry myself over sampai tido.. but org kata.. jgn ikutkan sangat.. nnt baby ikut perangai kite. .iskk.. the one thing I can do nak sejukkan hati is reading the Quran everyday... Mama kata, baca la surah Yusof.. Surah Mariam.. Surah Luqman. and Yassin.. tu aje yg aku ulang2.... hehe.. dengan harapan.. jgn le anak aku ni ikut perangai emos tak tentu pasal nih.... Luckily my "Deboo" really2 penyabar... just like my father... no matter how I yelled at him, he never be mad at me.. altho dia slalu cakap "Patut la org kata, kalau wife pregnant.. kena byk besabar..." Isk.. sorry.. I really didnt mean nak marah2.... isskkk.. but you know.. sometimes you do irritate me.. kekeke

5. Asik nak pegi toilet aje.. especially malam.. Kalau ikutkan rasa nak pakai pampers aje... kan senang... Before tido, wajib sekali.. then, pukul 2 bangun.. pukul 5 bangun lagi.. then pukul 7 lagi.. adehh... I know it's all because my kidney is working extra hard processing extra fluid in my body.. and my uterus is getting bigger which gives extra pressure on my bladder that makes me want to pee nearly every hour... Oh well..

6. Bloating and gas inside my stomach all the time... tak bleh perut kosong sket.. I'll easily get perut kembung and angin.. makes me realllly uncomfortable and those wind will cause nausea and back to vomitting .. againn....

Well... I'm not writing this entry to complaint... no.... but just to share the experience.. since I know.. in the end.. it will all be worth it! Looking at the scanned visual of my baby moves inside me is the most wonderful feelings and hearing the heartbeats for the first time was the most beautiful sound that you would listen... And most of the time.. I would reach out to mama asking this and that... and now that I'm a mother to be... baru la tau all the trouble my mother had gone thru.. iskk...

Cuti2 Golden Week...

2007-06-22T08:35:00.000+09:00

Wow... looks like it has been about 2 months since I've last updated my blog.. huhu.... lama giler.. guess sindrom malas really attacked me... well, it's not that I have nothing to write.. its just that tooo lazy.. plus my 'condition' now really made me exhausted and drained out my energy... finishing house chores is one thing, huhu..(mcm la byk sgt...!) but cooking really made me nauseated all the time.... will update more on 'this'.. hehe.. just to start, here are some photos of few places we went this few months...

Kat atas ni pictures of Nagasaki Tall Ship Festival... held kat Dejima Wharf aje.. so dekat aje.. at first we planned to just take a walk by the Dejima Wharf to observe the ships from all over the world parked there, but lucky us... One of MHI staff who owned a boat saw us and invited us to take a ride on his boat.. huhu.. best gile... out of thousands people there, he actually managed to see us.. tu la untung pakai tudung..! senang dia recognize.. haha... so, there we were.. naik bot free... and had a really nice views of the ships there.. tu boat Takane 'R' tu boat yg kitorg naik... hehe...

And yg kat atas nih, kat Yanagawa.. its like Venice in Japan!.. huhu.. we took boat ride kengkonon mcm kat venice italy tu le.. haha.. tak dapek gi sana, dapat boat ride kat sini pun ok.. not bad la jugak.. it was a very pleasant, calming and beautiful 45 minutes journey through the man-made canal...

Nano Speed

2007-04-16T01:04:00.000+09:00

So, this is my latest racket.. hehe.. (Is it really mine..?) Guess kena share ngan dear hubby since he's alrady started to play badminton now.... ni sure berebut everytime nak main nih... anyhow, when it's time for me to get back to KL, I'll fight for it... Tak kire.. nak bawak balik gak...

Hora... Sakura

2007-04-13T01:22:00.000+09:00

Few updates... Guess I'm too lazy to blog lately... last two weeks we went to Omura Park to shoot some model-like photo bawah pokok sakura... though it was raining, we patiently waited under a pondok nearby the park until the rain stopped....

Tenzan Lagi......

2007-02-28T09:18:00.000+09:00

Last Sunday we went for skiing and snowboarding.... again..... This was the 2nd time we showed off our winter sport skill in Tenzan.. haha.. (macam la terer sangat....!) but okayla.. it was really fun.. well.. at least dah tak banyak tergolek macam masa first time dulu.... we went up pakai gondola tu, more than 10 times ( i think...!)....

However, the snow at Tenzan this year was sooo litle.. no more white view at the top of the mountains compared to last year... artificial snow was made just to cater for the skiing and snowboarding activities... other places, takde snow langsung...! Guess this year's winter was not that cold... but puas hati la jugak main ski... we spent about 4 hours there and until today, our whole body still aching...sakit2 badan... haha.... takde stamina langsung..! It was still great, tho'.... looking forward for skiing at Tenzan again.. next winter.. hopefully...

Sweet Home Nagasaki.. hehe

2007-02-27T13:58:00.000+09:00

Today is the 11th day since I arrived in Nagasaki..... Just to share...this is where we live now... I just realized that this small apartment where we live in now is our own very first house.. So I hav to save the pictures somewehere, so that I can always look back to our very first house..... ada la jugak sentimental value nye...
It's quite small tho.. hehe.. Kiut aje... since Japanese people do not really into such big houses like in Malaysia.... for the ease of keeping the whole house warm during the winter season especially...
Anyhow, I love it... the smaller the house, the easier to manage.. i mean...takde la sakit2 pinggang vacuum 1 rumah.. I can complete vacuuming the whole house not more than 10 minutes time..
So these are the places where we sleep, watch tv and cds, where we eat and where I cook.... every day.... I've always dreamt of a 'Casa Impian' look house.. I just love going at show houses coz the way they decorate those houses are extremely gorgeous.. cantik sangat..! of course la kan... nak jual rumah, kena la decorate lawa2... anyhow.. back when I was working in KL, i can just spend my lunch time at SSF deco mart, instead of having lunch.... hehe.. Just dreaming how my house would look like when I finally own one.... hmmm....

The day I started blogging....

2007-02-26T16:36:00.000+09:00

Gee.... Finally... I've decided to start blogging after all this while... Well, it's all started when I had sooooo much ( and i mean soooo much...! )of my spare times since the beginning of my long leave from work.. hehe. not that long tho.. it's only for one year.. anyhow, that is the longest leave i had since the begining of my working life in MISC since August 2002... chewwah.. macam la dah lama sgt keja... Like what my boss said on the last day before my leave." I wish I hav the opportunity like u... to hav such a loong leave...." Guess I am lucky, eh... Boss jeles la tu..

So, here I am.. After all, I have had this one hobby for such a long time.. that is, reading my firends' blog.. I could spend hours in front of my PC dropping by, from one blog to another, just to read others' stories... so today, I've decided.. what the heck.. I should write something too... for the sake of sharing my thots with others too... altho I'm not that good in writing.. (I hate writings actually..!) but oh well, if i hav somethin to write, i write lah. if not, let it be.. Like some people.. entry "Murtabak" dia je dah nearly 2 years not updated.... for that person... u know who u are lah kan.... hehe

Since my unpaid leave started nearly two weeks ago, my friends kept asking, how's life being a full time housewife..... Well, for all dear friends who asked, I would say that it is quite interesting... I mean, besides the house chores that I'm obliged to do ( and I just love doing it, surprisingly..!), I could spend hours of watching tv.. being a couch potato that is.. hehe... for the first week, I finished watching my favourite drama series "Desperate Housewives".... up to season 3...

The other thing, I had the chance to experiment my cooking skill (haha.. takde skill pun.. not a good cook after all..!) but okay la.. for a beginner.... The one thing I love during my holidays, is of course, I dont hav to think about work at all..! dont hav to rush early in the morning through traffics, altho I still hav to wake up early in the morning to prepare breakfast for my dear hubby.... But most of all, what I love about my life now, is simply just being here... with him... altho most of the time he could always find ways to "menyakat" me.. but I just love being here...